Huss

Wadap mai. .assalamualaikum,my friends expect me to update my blog soo,here it is! Aah,ok,lets start. .today,me and ma friends(saf,syam,muiz and hairuz) went out to hang out,its been awhile you know since the last time. .we went to the bank first to withdraw some cash then we headed to shopping.com.bn cuz i wanted to buy an external hard disk. .a 500Gb xhd for $99,quite a good price for me. .i had lil trouble deciding which colour to choose. .there were only two options,black or red. .the black one is the common one so if i buy that it'll be the same as other people's. .i rarely see people with the red one but im not really a fan of red (Sorry red lovers xp) . .after a few minutes of thinking, i chose the red cuz i think that the black one is khnda dull looking. .paid for it,went to the car,and off to the mall (the only building bruneians call a mall). .i messaged MH earlier and she'd be watchin the movie with us later. .as soon as we reached the building,our stomachs demanded food. .but we went to buy the tickets before we went to KFC,I wanted McDonalds but went to KFC. .ordered the zinger xmeal and didnt expect safwan to pay for me,thanks bang chap! !only finished eating the fried chicken,ate like 1/8 of the burger and half of the french fries. .so i gave the leftover to Muiz who was seatin infront me and keeps sayin 'aku lum plang knyang ne' evertym i said 'nda ku t abis eh'. .and i didnt even finish my drink. .maybe its the porridge i had for breakfast. .i mean,i usually eat a LOT! !one x meal is a no problem! Anyway,after eatin me n c saf we went to the toilet. .and then to UTAMA GRAND to buy chewing gums to refreshen our breaths. .after that we met with the others,then me and syam went to cinema 7 to watch NGANGKUNG while the others went to watch TRON LEGACY. .Waie,MH and her sister was supposed to join me and syam but they came in late. .they didnt miss anything important tho. .the movie was ok, 6/10 and im being generous xD Funny but not THAT funny,i only laughed real hard when i read an address printed on the lorry in the movie. .the address says "kg btg bjuntai",well,i find it funny. .after that we went to perform our zuhur prayers cuz the movie started a minute after the azan so we didnt have time to pray first. .became the imam in the surau and it felt like when i was in PTEK X( our next destination was Dairy Queen. .waie ordered French Vanilla,syam and MH the usual Blizzard Orea,i had Blizzard Maltesers while MH's sister (lets call her EH now) did nt want to have anything for whatever reason,hahah. .so the five of us sat at the table,the boys talked with the boys,and the girls with themselves. .hoho,i cant think of anything to talk about with the girls. .the other boys came and kidnapped Waie from us to go to NBK and play COD 4:Modern Warfare. .so it was the four of us,and there was that awkward silence. .hoho. .MH suggested me to talk of my experience during the interview. .and the nyanyah side of me took control ,breaking the silence. .soon,there was that silence again but EH came to the resque and spoke to me "jln2 eh" and i was like,why didnt i thought of that? Hah. .we walked to the OTHER arcade ( cuz i dnt noe the name,its not uniarcade,its the other one). .i bought 4 tokens confidently,stepped into the karaoke room and was shocked when there was no token slot. .RUPANYAA,i was supposed to tell the people in charge. .hoho. .its $1 per song and i wanted two songs. .i "sang" first. .didnt noe what song to sing so i went for "knock you down" by keri hilson. .it was a DISASTER! ! I sounded soo horrible,i barely rmember the song. .i was so frustrated that i listened and sang a long to the song when i reached home. .a stupid dcision,hahah. .then the Hs sang "Fearless" by taylor swift. .they sounded good,WAAAYY better than i did. . Hahah. .still having the tokens,we used it to shoot hoops. .it was time for the Hs to go home so its bye2 time. .me and syam went to the surau again to perform asar prayer. .we met the others at the fun donut (Waie's treat xD) before we were off to home. .and that was it. .hahah. .i had fun today. .and tomorrow kan main badminton! Yehee~ mana racquet ku aah?hoho,minjam ja dri c syam. .ookie assalamualaikum n peace~

Solved

Assalamualaikum and happy saturday! !today im feeling like english baybaay~ ookie. .it seems that as i grow older,the way i see things keep changing and changing due to exposures to different information and opinions. .and now,thanks to THE CHALLENGER,i now see marriage in a different way,the correct way. .when i was younger,i used to think that before two people can become boyfrens and girlfrens,they shud REALLY know each other,the purpose is to insure long lasting relationship,i thought i was clever,hahah. .then after years passed i discovered that when the two people become a couple,THAT is the time for them to really get to know each other,not before,this is for better understanding of each other because people act differently to friends and to that special someone. .so if she or he is too manja for example or too jealousy type and you dont like that,you can just dump him/her and you'd SAVE ur time getting to "know" him/her because u get to move on earlier,not like my first way of seeing the case. .if u like him/her,get engaged and get married! !to me this WAS the most logical point of view. .after a couple of years,i became more serious about relationship and marriage and was DESPERATE to have a relationship soon. .but i didnt know if its the right thing to do. .i mean,will it last til i get married and so on? ?and i also heard about the NO GF-BF IN ISLAM but tend to ignore it,wasnt a big deal to me. .i wrote about the problem on my blog. .and THE CHALLENGER responded. .he/she told me that i shouldnt have a bf-gf relationship,due to Islamic teachings and that i should do more reading. .and i DID. .i googled ISLAMIC RELATIONSHIP and found a site. .the article was ENDLESS! !hahah,didnt finish half way and i was CONVINCED! ! Marriage,is special. .it is when people get married that they get to know each other. .not before bf-gf,not after bf-gf,but AFTER MARRIAGE. .marriage is the time that we should experience the excitement and happiness spending time with a special someone,if u have spent time with that someone before you get married,then it makes the marriage less special. .so all i have to do now,is wait til i get old enough to marry ( 25 ? ? ) and when i like someone just go tell my parents yang aku bkenan,hahaha. .but then a few questions popped in my head "who in the world in this modern days would accept me as her husband when she doesnt know me that much?" and i got the answer right away,my answer to the question was,MY JODOH! ! the next question was "how'd u noe if shes the type of girl u like when i only know a lil bit bout her ? " and my answer to that was,I believe that a good person shall be jodoh-ed ( xp ) with a good person as the challenger mentioned,so all i gotta do is be a good person,hehe. .I smiled to my self as the answers i have been looking for has came to me. .and i think this is also the reason it never worked out for me and the girls i liked,its so that MY MARRIAGE would be SPECIAL. .so for now,i'll just sit back,relax and enjoy the show. .hahaha. .til next time people,assalamualaikum and peace! !

Special thanks to THE CHALLENGER XD

Aham aham

Wadap mai' ( urg2nya nganya phm ne xp ) ? ? Assalamualaikuuum. .ari ne aku bmood kn blogging kai bhasa mlayu. .mlayu brunei plang tu,mun mlayu standard kapisan x eh,lagi handal englishku dri bhasa mlayu.hoho. .anu bah,apath kamu?cuti aah? Siuk kh so far? krja kmu udaah? Aku lum plang krja,but aku start krja 3rd january time school reopen sal parentsku suruh. .arah pija hat saja ahh. .aku mau buat pija,but nda kna bge position atu,sbr sja,n bsyukur aku dpt krja. .hehe. .so since aku blum krja,nadakn ku buat bnrnya,kburinganku,aku ane kn mau main2 photoshop,handalkn lge,but pcku rusak,bth dh. .grapik card drivernya rusak bh. .aish,bleh plang mseh d pkai but sakit mata bh mlyat screen aah,colournya 4 bit x nganya. .hoho. .phm kmu kh?hahaha. .tpi at least dpt mseh ku buat beats and dgr lagu,baik jua mataku dpt adapt,bsyukuur,alhamdulillah. . .eath,tiap2 hari yg ku buat,mkn mnum (kcuali ari ane psl puasa xp) ,lyat tv,b facebook (nda dpt tinggal ne),msn,dgr lagu,buat lagu and beats,tiduur. . .jgn kn blurus,ofkos aku bnafas. . .awuu,smbyangkuu. .awu,sudah ku bwudhu. . .awuu,mandi jua. .knapa aku rsa mcm aku ckp sorang diri?hoho,eath ne pasal aku kburingan n nada dgn chill. . .slalunya main game plangku ne mun kburingan tpi ntaah,mcm nda lagi siuk bh video game ane,mcm ilang minat ku sdh. .apath tu?timbak2,tumbuk2,nda jua siuk! !hoho. .siuk plang. .tpi ntaah. .apakan. .rindu plangku kn blajar. .ekseeen~ nadaku rindu! Aku rindukn jln2 mkn2 n chill2 dgn kwn dskulah atu. .byk wh tu knangan d sana,hoho. .psl lagu,aku still kn mcari melody yg lawa n ssuai,pyh wah,aku kn buat lagu psl time2 dskulah atu. .blum ada inspirasi wah utk musicnya ane,cmanakn mbuat liriknya ne?apane apane. .hmm. .aku kn buat plan utk cuti ane. .awal ane lah ku buat aah. .bleh kaan?bleh lh ane blog ku. .hmm. .apa aah. .ok,kiranya aku krja part time,4 jam krja. .yg labihnya. .utk buat lagu,be fb,and satu lage yg pnting bgeku,aku mau readykn utk jdi seorang suami/bapa. .soo,aku kn try kuatkn iman,hafalkn tia x doa2 yg pnting2 atu,handalkn tia bca Quran atu. .pas2 aku mau jdi urg yg lbih pnyabar n pnyayang,so aku kn rapatkn lagi hubunganku dgn family ku. .pas2 aku mau blajar mmasak,hehe,pnting ne bgeku. .wlaupun aku laki2,hehe. .so nanti aku bleh masak dgn bne ku,hohoho *angan2* ada2 sja. .so,ckup x tu aah,masa atu?klau usulnya byk masa blabih,aku kn jadi full time a.k.a 8 jam. .advantagenya mun full time dpt mkanan pija hut free xp eh,awu,aku krja d pija hut mall,so nanti lawat2 sja ahh,haha. .mun kmu nmpak laki hensem rmbut afro eath udh tu xp hahaha. .satu g kn ku buat time cuti ane mfitkn bdn. .so mun time pagi2 jogging th ku tuu. .nda plang tiap2 hari. .hehe,n aku kn work out lage,after k singapore atu,tinggal waah work out ahh,huhu. .and uh,aku kn blajar driving kreta lge,haha. .nda g bth 18 x aaah. .8 bulan,bth kh tu?ntahlah. .haha. .and aku kn spend time lge dgn kwn2ku yg trsayang. .hahah,byk kn ku buat ane. . .tbuat kh ku nda ne. .hehehe. .bh,smpai cne sja x aah. .2 jam lbih g kn sungkai,woh0o!hahah,nda plangku lapar bnr. .bh bh. .nda jua jdi brnti ne krg. .ookie,assalamualaikum n peace! .] *emoticon unique yg urg2nya ngnya tau xp*

Advantages of me having a relationship now

Halu halu,assalamualaikum. .i told you i'd do this post as a comeback to the emo post i wrote about the disadvantages of me having a relationship now. .what? U havent read that post? Go read it,its awesome ! ( sense the sarcasm? ) hua hua hua. .ok lets start xD

lets start with the case about me not being ready. .ok. .lets compare marriage as having a driving licence. .the relationship being the car. .so if u can have the car before u even have the licence,aka ur not ready to drive. .so that means u can have a relationship even if ur not redy for marriage. .but u have to have commitment,take driving lessons,get ready. .
Next,will it last? Who knows?if theres a deep hole on the ground,u cant see whats down there,u dnt noe how deep it is. .so the only to find out how deep the hole is,is to jump down. . .unless ur scaaaared~ so u dnt know long it'll last,give it try. .if it doesnt work out,start from the beginning. .what im saying is that its worth trying. .its not like ur gonna die trying. .ur gonna get hurt but for me,its worth the risk,hahaha. .since this is about me,u cant disagree xp
next~ yes i have my family n my friends BUUUUT~ spending time with that special someone is a very different experience. .hehe,its like taking marijuana but ur addicted to coccaine. .does that make any sense?ntah lah. .
Next next! Aaah,theres a BETTER WAY to get those i succeeded. . .but but will i do those OTHER ways? Hahaha. .
Next next,apa lage? Bring it on!aah,about WASTING time and all? Its not a waste actually. .its part of learning. .learnt how to think and make decisions,learnt reasoning,learnt how to distract my self from being nervous,and blogging is SO not a waste of time! !helps me release tension,and its a good finger exercise,hahaha
next next! !eh,abis tia?hoho. .so aku add ja advantagesnya aah. . .the say the first time is the hardest. .if i have a relationship now and it doesnt work out well,i'll be more experienced and it wont hurt me much next time. .if it works out well,ALHAMDULILLAH,HAHAHA. .its a win win! !menang menang! !apakn. .lalalala. .apa lage ah? ? Having a relationship now is like having anything else,it has advantages and disadvantages,if u noe how to work with it,it'll have lots of good effects on u,its all about being smart. .am i smart? Yes yes i think so? So i can have a relationship now? Yes yes i think so :) No more Mr.emo? Yes Yes i think so xD HUA HUA HUA. .apakan. .ookie thats all~ ada yg kn mcabar my argument? ?post ja pat cbox ,hoho. .bh,assalamualaikum and peace~

Nganganganga

Hello blog! ! Assalamualaikum. .do u miss me? No? Why noot? Eish. .well i miss u,bth sdh nda blogging x aah. .anyway. .im BAAAACK in Brunei ~ tadi bru smpai kul 3:20. .then sdh tu pkul 7:30 arah urg bbadak tia. .nada reeehat. .huhu. .anyway,Singapore was AWESOME! !it was fun bah,altho tiring. .hehe. .at last,i bought toys! !bth dh nada bali mainan,hahah. .nerf plang sja ku bli,hehe. .i bought three nerf blasters!huahuahua bcuz im greedy. . Lalala. .i was in singapore for 9 days,did a lot of things with my family,like having breakfast together,having lunch together,having dinner together,having supper together and much2 more like drinking coke together,drinking tea together we even drank mineral water together! ! !isnt that AMAZING? ? Juuuust kidding. .we stayed at the grand park orchard hotel. .the first two days we went shopping,bought some clothes fo me self. .the 3rd day we went to snow city and the science cntre,it was fun! !and we went to the night safari and i went to the fish spa! ! Siuk! ! dnt rmember when. .then we transfred to the festive hotel in sentosa. .my dad liked the room bcuz it has a balcony so he didnt have to go downstairs to smoke xD the next day we went to the universal studios! ! And i had my first rollercoaster ride which i wasnt expecting. .i was queuing for a ride which i did not noe what,after like 20 mins of queuing,i saw a sign "WARNING,THIS IS A HIGH SPEED ROLLERCOASTER bla bla bla" and i was like WHAAAT? ? ! ! It was fun tho. .i screamed hystarically like a girl in a justin bieber concert. .im just glad the ride didnt last long. .hehe. .i strangled frankenstein! ! And i saw cleopatra,and fortunately she didnt see me or else she'd be with me right now n i cant blog. .i ate a burger! ! Dnt see anythng intrsting about that? Yeah me too. .anyway i did a lot of things there and bout a few souvenirs,cool pens! !the next day we went shopping again. .the next day we went skyriding,luge and segway something and ntah mcm2 activity. .we also went to the underwater world where we saw pink dolphins performing tricks and where i saw cool marine creatures! ! Yippee! ! Then we went back to grand park orchard. .pastu shop shop shop esuknya. .esuknya lge time to go home but smpat g shopping skajap d airport,hahaha. . .we ate a lot of fast food d singapore atu cuz byk tmpat nda halal. .tpi nyaman usulnya,bri bnci. .and i did not see any MH,only cute women. .yes,women,not girls,women. .hehe. .im tired now,i wanna sleep. .soo,gud bye! !assalamualaikum! This is a rush post,have mercy xD

Wiwiwi

Assalamualaikum n hello~ im at airport now. .gonna be at singapore for about 9 days. .its been a long time since i went somewhere else besides miri and kk. .hahah. .i rmember the last time i went to singapore but the memory is kinda blurred bcuz i was still very little. .i hope everythings gonna go fine now,i dnt want no trouble. .hehe. .today im feelin better than yesterday and waaay better than yestrday's ystrday. .imagine having a fever,diarrhoea,and having that about to vomit feeling. .it was bad. .but i am grateful. .we have to be grateful for everything. .i mean,i was only sick like for 3 days. .imagine ur feelin like that ALL the time. .or imagine ur sick on a very important day. .sure,i was supposed to train at pizza hut that day (ohh yeah didnt tell u bout this xD) but its better than me being sick while in singapore,how am i supposed to enjoy it?haha. .anyway,i just rmembered that we're not supposed to bring sharp items and just realised i got my geometry set in my bag!bcuz its the same bag that i use fo skool. .it reminded me of skool,i rely miss it. .hmm. .now im just waitin for the time to get on the plane. .hehe. .btw,dnt worry about the post below,it was just the other side of me,the bad,the sad,the pessimist,but clever side of me. .but not clever enough as i can beat his speech. .huahua. .but thats for another post xD OOkay,i think thats all for now,im sory if this post is kind of a rush,hehe,it is.im gnna miss brunei,my room,nasi katok n etc. .okay,assalamualaikum n peace~

Dadada

Assalamualaikum. .hello world! ! Ive been wondering,whether im ready for romance,or not. .my mother says its a part of growing up. .i think my father agrees too. .i. .think differently. .well the way i think of things/situation may change daily (says my frens) but for today,i dnt think i NEED it. .i WANT it,but i dnt NEED it. .and i dnt even think im ready for it. .in my opinion,if i am to have a relationship with someone,its becuz i want to marry that person. .but am i ready for marriage? No. . I dnt have a job,so i dnt have money,so i cant feed my family. .another thing is,i dnt think im independent enough,am i responsible? I dnt think so. . Besides,if im having a relationship now,will it last? ?hmm? So is there any good reason to have a relationship NOW at a young age? If im lonely i have my friends to have fun with,i have my family. . my mother says that im missing out something in my life. . Is that true? People say tha mother knows best. . YES! Its true,but there are a LOT of things in life,and u can never do them all. .so its a guarantee u'll be missing sumthing out in ur life. .So far in my attempt to find the love of my life,what have i succeeded? Say whatever u want i bet theres a BETTER way to achieve that. .i wasted my time thinking,crying,looking into the mirror talking to my self,and wasting my energy,i lose focus in classsometimes due to nervousness,spent hours to make a decision on what to do and to just trying to understand my feelings,and i waste my time like right now blogging. . So uhh,i think i'll stop now. .im sorry if this post is emo an not fun(except if u enjoy reading emo posts). .ok,assalamualaikum and peace.

Wawawawaa

Assalamualaikum n hello~ today im going to blog using Brunei n only a lil bit of English bcause im sick of using English saja. .and i assume that most of the readers of this blog understand Brunei. .ryt?correct me if im wrong. .

Ookie. .so. .tadi pagi,aku arah jemputan kawin my cousinkh o something,hehe nda ku brapa biasa,d polo club sbgai pnyambut ttamu,tukang mbge campur dan sbgainya. .hoho. .byk jua lah ku salam atu,byk lah jua rtinya phala atu. .hehe. .ada jua yg nda bsalam ngan aku,luan laju kakinya atu. .sambil 'bkrja' atu aku mdgr bne2 ( eEe! Xp ) bdikir. .entertaining jua lah,nda jua sangal kakiku bdiri saja. .so sdh mcm smua jmputan sudah msuk,aku naik ke atas tampat urg bdikir/btausyeh atu. .wow~ ada M~ hehe. .after atu kbwh ku makan. . .after ku knyang(sbnrnya blum knyang xD)then,urg balik pun Aku jadi tukang salam. .pastu turun tia urg yg bdikir ane. . .waah,attractive jua lah yg main gandang atu pasal matanya n snyumannya yg unique. .tapi gue nggak approach. .n0o~mngapa?ntah! !bsai sudah jnisnya. . .aishh! !tapi nda apa lah,ane sbgai pngajaran.mun nanti ada pluang cmane,jgn dlepaskan. . .hahahahahaha. . .ookie. .itu saja. . .assalamualaikum n peace

Lalolalo

Assalamualaikum n hello. .i havent updated for quite awhile. .i wanted to post something but i didnt noe what to write/type/or whatever. .maybe theres just nothing interesting to tell or maybe im too lazy to explain it or maybe i just dnt wanna share it or whatever. .n now im talking rubbish/trash/crap/or whatever. .wat to write what to type. .ohh. .oh. .i sent my cv to pizza hut last sunday. .n yestrday i had my intrview. .it was AWESOME! !it was more like a friendly chat,didnt talk much about the job. .but before dat i had to wait like 2 hours! Fortunately i had sum1 to talk to,a stranger but who cares?my parents never say "do not talk to strangers" well not in english. .lol. .oh yeah,the stranger is now just a person i talked to while waitin for an interview,bcuz i didnt ask his name,hoho. .dat sounded gay. .but it isnt. .i didnt talk to a female bcuz i didnt want to be misundrstood as flirting,hoho. .i only flirt MH and there was no MH there,but there was an H. .but shes nt waitn for an intrview,she works there and shes definitely older than me,like 5 years older? Anyway. .i shud be called by pizza hut next monday to confirm if im accepted/rejected/or watever. .WOH0O cant wait. .i hope they'll accept me. ."im sick of all these rejections" - youngjok3r. . "the only medicine to my sickness is acception" - c pau. . "so cant u just accept the rejection?" - fauzan. . "u think ur smart huh?" - c pau. ."well,i AM smarter than you" - fauzan. ."wait,but arent we all the same person?" - youngjok3r. . "yeah,i guess so" - fauzan. . "so how can a person be smarter than himself during the same time and in the same dimension? Unless,he's crazy! " - c pau. . "HEY IM OFFENDED!" - all three. . Watever. .lets talk bout sumthn else. .hmm. .lets talk about love! "booring~" - c pau. . .well lets talk about cars! "even booring~" - youngjok3r. . So lets talk about fishes then? "too random" - c pau. .u noe wat. .LETS TALK ABOUT HOW I FEEL SO ANNOYED BY THESE TWO PEOPLE WHO ARE APPARENTLY DOESNT HAVE ANY IDEA WHAT TO TALK ABOUT BUT COMPLAINS ABOUT I AM GONNA TALK ABOUT?HUH? Hows THAT? . . "sounds great,yeah,we cud have that,go on" - youngjok3r. . AAAARRGGHHHH! ! !

-This post is discontinued due to unavoidable circumstances-

Nyanyanyanya

Uuluuu(megamind style). .i mean,hello world! !assalamualaikum! !its been awhile since the last time i blogged(properly). .ive been busy. .busy with what? I dnt noe. .my EXAM is OVER! ! !yea! ! ! Now i have like at least 6 months of HOLIDAAAAAY! !i feel like buying ALL those stuffs ive been wanting to get but i do not have MONEY! !so. .the only way to solve this problem,using einstein's law of problem solving which does not exist,its to GET A JOB! !if uve been reading my blog,u wud noe that i planned to lawn the mow. .its a great idea since im the one who came up with it ( xp ) but the problem is,its hard to find the customers. .so using the same einstein law,i have to think of another job. .me n my friends went to one of the pizza hut brunches yesterday. .the pizza was AWESOME bcuz its FRESH FROM THE OVEN ! My friend asked me to find out if they have a vacancy. .so i asked the supervisor( ? ) and he called up his boss who soon came to our table with a smile on his face. .we greeted and talked and introduced ourselves and talked and talked. .it seems like i have chance to work at that place,hehe. .i REALLY want to work in the KITCHEN! !i want to be the one to make the customer's stomach smile wide,although i cant actually see it,but yeah. .ive always wanted to learn how to cook,so. .THIS IS MY CHANCE! ! So todaaay i'll be going there again to give em my resume and hopefully i'll be called for an interview ( my first! ) and hopefully i wud SUCCEED! !it wud be AWESOME~ i wish i cud get like $400 a month so like after two months i cud get my studio stuffs and start recordin for our MIXTAPE! !WOHOO ITS GONNA BE FUN! !and after that maybe i cud get more money and get a new laptop! !hahaha. .so,what else shud i talk about? Hmm. .Ohh,yeah. .i do not noe why,but lately,i kept dreamin of her! Its funny u noe. . I mean,if u think its because i think of her a lot. .NO! I do not think of her as much as i think of eating. .yes,im always hungry nowadays. .anyway,so what IS the reason to her mysterious presence in my dream world? ? Using the einstein law,again. .no,its not applicable. .hmm. . Aah,using a theory i just made which im not sure of its validity. .this must be some sort of WITHDRAWAL SYMPTOM! !yes,it make sense,at least to me. .hehe. .another thing i wanna talk is my "reviews" bout my friend. .honestly i think its plain STUPID! !hahah,i mean,what was i thinking? It wud take me at least one week if i was to describe a friend,i made the two in less than an hour. . .hmm,so i'll stop doing that. .hahaha. .so im sorry to say (no im nt rely sorry,im tired! ) this is the end for now. .assalamualaikum and peace! ! !

Hafizul hakim

Assalamualaikum n hye! Today.i mean,tonyte,im going to tell u bout my friend pijul,aka aki,jemo,etc. .he is another close friend of mine. .met him when i was in form 5. .he wast just transferred from an arabic school. .haha!i still rmember what i did. .his table was next to mine,so i tried to talk to him. . Hello,wats ur name,how old r u. .those kind of thing. .n then,i tried to be MORE friendly and asked "are u into NARUTO(a famous manga/anime that i have lots to catch up with) ? " and unexpectedly what he did was like show me his red naruto watch before doing the "sasuke" cool gesture. .hoho. .and thats how we started being friends. .he is sort of shy but once he's cmfortable with u,hes fine. .hes a good listener,gives good advice.laughs to my jokes. .and he is the person who introduced me the beauty of visual kei(kind of a subgenre of japanese metal)!! He is a fun guy but there are somethings which hes very sensitive about. .u dnt wanna make him angry,hehehe. .he his an AWESOME writer. .he helped me to get an A1 for my Olevel english. .hehe. .in fact,he's the REASON im into writing,bcuz i was jealous,hahaha. .he is a kind person. .yeah. .i think,that is all. .good nyt! !assalamualaikum. .now i have to read the Quran cuz i havent finished it yet and i have Khatam Quran on the 25th! !hoho

Ak md safwan

Assalamualaikum. .tday im gnna talk about my fren safwan n why he's awesome. .he is a very close friend of mine and my music partner. .known him since i was in form 1 in smrimba,we were in the same class. .started to hang out with him in form 2,bcuz we were pmb express students.we've been close since then. .i think. .in form 4,we were also classmates. .we share common interests,like manga,magic and dancing. .in form 3,we were active in drawing. .in form 4,active in doing magic,i love the reactions of peoples faces when theyre astouned,hahaha. .so fun. .in form 5 we started dancing. .in form 5,me n safwan were assigned to make a presentation on pollution(chem class). .we always tried to be unique from the others to catch the teacher's attention. .so,this time we decided to. .RAP! ! Yeah,it was a great experience. .never thot it wud be the first step for us to become partners in making music. .safwan,is a funny guy. .but his jokes nowadays are sometimes disturbing! !lets not put too much details. . Hahaha. .he smiles almost all the time and he seldom gets angry. .even if he's angry,the only difference from the "not angry safwan" is that he lost his smile. .and sometimes he still makes jokes when he's angry. .Girls and kids,gets comfortable easily with safwan. .this is one of the things im jealous of,hehe. .he can sometimes be a listener to ur problems,but sometimes not,bcuz sometimes he doesnt realize that we were being serious,but its alright,haha. .he also likes to annoy people,but in the end got the people laughing. .hmm,what else. .i think that is all,hahah. .bh,assalamualaikum n peace. .

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I dont usually do this but uhh,here i go. . I. .love. . . .my friends! ! Theyre just so awesome! ! I cant imagine how i'd live without them. .actually,i can,and i looked ugly and horrible. .anyway. .each of my friends have different characteristics and different qualities. .so,i think that it wud be interesting to tell u guys about my friends and im going to write one post for each person,hehe. .but not tnight,i wanna sleEP~ btw,i dnt think im gnna talk about any female friends bcuz im nt dat close to them compared to the guys,hehe. .soo,dats ol fo 2nyt,just a short post,assalamualaikum n peace. .

DOUBLE POST! !AhaaAaAa~

Hello. .assalamualaikum. .today was FUUUN! ! !i feel like im really studying!and it feels good~ oryt,i'll be jogging tmrrow mornin at the school with my friends. .endorphins baybay (this is bginning to be my trademark,hehe) . .again,i'll jog barefooted,bcuz its fun! ! !after dat gnna prctice some more p3. . .i cant wait to stop doin math so i cud FOCUS on chem n pijik. .bcuz chem n pijik doesnt need much practice. .hehe. .about MH,i cant wait to chat with her again,i hope God gives me another chance soon. .i have a LOT to ask her,hehe. .ookie,til next time! Assalamualaikum n peace! !

Assalamualaikum

"Had egg" ! ! Maths p3 is really not my thing. .so im takin a break now. .huh. .a month away from my release,i am soo excited! ! But im nervous cuz im not prepared for the exams! ! ! I just hope evrythin goes well. .oh yeah,last night was AWESOOME(low pitched,just imagine a hippo sayin this) ! ! I chatted with MH ! Well,online,but stiiill~ its funny to me that i tell her bout my feelings,apparently she still reads this blog so no hiding. .we talked a little bout THE guy (u know,the lucky one whom im jealous of). .she told me that she told him that hes lucky. .theres sumthin suspicious about this. .shes not the kind to be like "ur lucky to have me bcause im awesome" . .no,so there must be a reason. .hehe. .and uh,i found out that girls also do the "eEeEEEE (excited state)". .she said she does that sometimes when she sees me. .i was flattered. .hahah. .she's so "open". .dat it seems like shes intrested,when shes not. .i dnt whats happenin,but i just dnt care anymore if shes taken,i just want to be as close as possible to her. .somehow its better than being nobody. .and now i ask my self why am i soo desperate. .i dnt noe,hormones? ? Oops,was that rhetorical? . .anyway,i just realised that i "planned" this post while i was talkin to my self in the shower. . Wow,i write a lot when it comes to her. .lets stop,i spent nearly 30 mins doing this,MY CRUCIAL 30 MINS! !wait,i spent 4 hours chattin with her..but it was worth it! !endorphins baybay! !shud help me fight the stress. .oh yeah,i forgot to thank her,how cud i forget? ?so if YOU are reading this.THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR AN AMAZING NIGHT! ! Ookie. .dat is all. .assalamualaikum n peace. .

Halu

Hello,assalamualaikum. .how r ya'll doin?me im doin good. .i jogged today,its a l0oong time ago the last time i jogged bfore tday. .it feels good. .i feel more energetic! !i dnt feel drowsy n i can study! ! What?my exams? Amm,gp was NOT ok. .well,its just an As subject,no biggie,im just worried bout my teacher's feelin if my results arent gud enough. .next wud be gp paper 1 n maths paper 4. .wish me luck! ! "why do u need luck,dnt u prepare enough?" - my mother. . .hahah. .its been awhile since i tell u about my aaah. .love life(there are multiple side of my life. .career/study,love/family,hobbies,religious stuffs). .i still have feelings for her but im cool with the fact that she cant be mine,hehe. .evrytime i see a girl,i'll compare that girl to her,hahah. .i guess that is all for now,kinda bz,hehe. .assalamualaikum n peace. .

baaa. .

hello. .assalamualaikum. .wow,double post tday,despite my tight schedule im still able to blog. .hahah,today was. .awesome! ! !sure im tired but it feels gud to actually do sumthing for my preparation. .hehehe.today i made a "last minute notes" for physics cuz i love physics soo much?hahah yes i used my lil brother's book cuz i theres no other book i cud use,n im out of foolscape paper. .soo,today i managed to cover 3 topics,yeay! ! ! i ate chocolate n drank water for my break between each hour of studyinn yeah,my study table ended up being a mess. .noooo~ hahah,ok,dats all for now,i wish i'd study like this everyday so i can win the waaar! ! !ok,assalamualaikum and peace. .

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Hello! And assalamualaikum. . Right now im hvin my 7 minutes break from studyin. .hehe. .exams are really near. .im soo excited,to leave the school hehe,leave the subjects i dnt rely like which i took only bcuz the course i want need those subjects. .hehe. .my head feels. .aaah. .how do i describe this. .amm. .pressured?hahah. .blogging is supposed to make me feel better. .n i think its workin,hehe. .ok,i gotta go. .assalamualaikum n bye! !

Huu

It seems that my friend are not satisfied with my ATTITUDE. .they be like "kau ane pau mun blajar cmane tapi udah kluar rsult priksa. . .cmanakn tu?" basically they dont think that i work hard enough,but i got good grades. .a part of me was offended,another part felt guilty. .maybe its the way i study is effective?maybe i work SMART. .not HARD. .maybe its the prayers of the people for me. .or my prayers back when i was a little kid. .or my NAME which means TRIUMPH! !anyway. .from now on i'll try to work HARDER while keep using the study method i usually use. .which is no secret actually. .read thru syllabus cover and understand everything. .make own notes. .make list of definitions and formulae. .if have time do pyp. .thats all! Hehe. .ok,til next time,assalamualaikum and peace! !

Yaaah

Hello,this is a just a summary(not even a finished summary) xD Sory im too lazy to finish the actual "article". .so,hope u enjoy this,hehe

How to win in an argument(esp wit frens bcuz its soo fun!). .

1.Knowledge. .u need to know a LOT about the topic OR u have to know BETTER about the certain topic than ur opponent.
2.Speed. .u need to be fast,if u know a LOT but u cant spit it out fast enough ur gonna get STUNNED by ur opponent and LOSE.u'll have to get used to thinking fast. .
3. Support. .sometimes u got a friend around you,u have to know HOW to gain his support.it really depends on ur luck there are several techniques i use.stand next to the friend and face the opponent so the friend feels like his own YOUR side.Show CONFIDENCE by using a professional happy type of tone,i dnt noe how to call it.Try to be FUNNY,friends tend to support the more fun side. Talk LOUD and CLEAR enough so the friend can hear u
4. FOCUS. .U must LISTEN to what ur opponent is saying. .try to get into every detail,capture every single mistake he/she makes. .so u can come up with a comeback. .
5. PROVE. .give proof to what ur saying by giving examples. .this is VERY POWERFUL.
6. DO NOT be angry,smile always,it shows that ur calm and confident.believe me,even if u lose,u'd be ok. .
7. Risky but try to talk of another topic,and try to relate the new topic to the original. .so that u'll have a better chance of winning.
What to do when u realize ur about to lose.
1.accept it,learn this so u won't be ANGRY later and hurt people
2.try to neutralise,so that no one wins.do this by saying that non of the side is REALLY correct,theres something better.

Hehe,hope u find it useful. .assalamualaikum n peace. .

Haha

So im trynna forget her but let me tell ya sumthn,hehe. .last week i was in a school "surau". .there are informative notes sticked to the wall. .well i read some of it and came across this : "Kecantikan seorang lelaki . . 1. Tidak putus asa. ." something lyk that. .is that supposed to be a clue?so i was reconsidering whther or nt to keep HOPING. .but i may end up being called PEMAJAL. .hahah. .crazy. .but im just gnna go with the flow,like i always did,and things always end up nicely. .aku rasa. . .hahah. . oryt,assalamualaikum and peace! !

EEeEe~ ! !

I dnt undrstand. .i thought i got over it. .i thought i'd forgotten her. .but it seems that ive been tricked by my self. .seeing her today didnt help at all. .makes me go "eeEEe! !"(excited state,if ur nt sure how it sounds just ring me). .she wore a baju kurong with colours of white,blue,purple and maybe some other colour that i failed to notice. .she had a black tudong on. .her shoes?i did not look because i was preoccupied with her warm caramel eyes,her set of perfectly aligned pearl white teeth(unlike mine,huahuahua) that shows when she smiled her perfect smile and the tiny dots (which i do not know what exactly) on different parts of her face that makes her more appealing. . .to me. .tho i saw her quite a few times today,i only talked to her once (syukuuur). .i wanted to talk to her EVERYtime i see her but,that wudnt be cool,hehe,people need space. .i also WANT to text her but i hv to avoid doing that because theres a limit to what i can do in this situation. . .n0o0o~ why are the people i like always taken? ? Or Why do i like girls who are taken? ? I rmember when i thot she was 'available' i was soo. .high? ? Hahah,good times. . I dnt noe why i dare to write about her again,i mean she COULD READ this. .i love typing in captal letters xp. .well if theres something i want to say to her its "SORRY~". .and uh sorry guys if ur expectin for the "HOW TO WIN IN AN ARGUMENT" post. .i already did 80% of it. .i'll post it soon,i think(or my version of "aku rasa. ."). .uhm,so i think this is the end of it,assalamualaikum and peace!

Hmm

I feel like this blog is gettin boring. .why?pms. .wait,im a dude. .nevrmind. .soo. .im trying to make this post a lil bit different,hehe. .y know,since i was a kid,i was always jealous of the people who makes people laugh. .and so i did a study and im about to share u the techniques i found which can be used in Brunei xD =

1.Exaggeration. "gila bebau jua kau smpai tshut down idungku"
2.RUPANYA/PADAHAL/EKSIN TIA . "eh gay jua justin bieber ane,whoo!" "eksin tia pdhal dbliknya abis brakat poster jb arah dinding ah" this can be used to 'punch' sumone,hehe. .and the ARGUEMENT will start.
3.BELURUS. . "makan lagi wah" "nda eh,parutku mana sama mcm parutmu!" "ofcoz lah nda sama,ndakn sama x,jauh bezanya" "eawah brapa kilometer jauhnya ah?". .this may be the end to the 'talk' but i would say " kira tia ulehmu " andd,the people wud laugh,hopefully. .
4.Impression. .u act lyk ur somebody else,and basically make fun of em. .it doesnt have to be someone real,the person cud be fictional. .i used act as my math teacher and laughed with my friend. .aaaaand we failed the test xp lesson learned
5.comparison. .aah,this one is common. .u can compare a person to something UNEXPECTED so it would make an impact,like "wow cute jua muamu ane mcm kucing" vs "wow cute jua muamu ane mcm mickey mouse" . .so u can joke AND flatter at the same time,2in1. .Hehe
these arent the only techniques,theres a LOT rely. .i just dnt noe how to explain or maybe im just too lazy,SORRY. .

you know what?i think this post is stupid. .hahah,i mean WHO AM I to even talk about this. .im nt lyk a super duper funny dude or wat so eva. .hmm. .anyway,lets just continue xp

soo. .ANYBODY can be funny,u dnt need to know those techniques. .All you need is creativity,a lil bit of insensitivity,confidence. .aaand know when to joke which kind of joke and to different type of people. .and if the joke is FUNNY or LAME,the people is the judge. .what i usually do is,when someone says something,theres a lot of things that pop in my thoughts and if i find something funny and appropriate i would spit it out. .its simple. .its just a matter of trial n error. .experiment with the people,no u dnt need to have a lab. .

So. .i think this is it for now,i hope u find it useful. .hehe. .next time i'd do a post on HOW TO WIN IN AN ARGUMENT. .aah,this wud b more intrsting and something i know more about and good at. .ok,assalamualaikum and peace xD

Saja saja

If romance is not necessary
why do i feel lyk its a must
if i cant believe me
then who is there to trust
i cant understand my self
i dont share the same language with my heart
You can read all the books on your shelves
but you will not decipher even if you try so hard
i have seen through million eyes
and i have read them right
but now the real words are a million miles
because i cant believe my sight
no,not any more


AAAAPAKAAAN. .nada yo,buang buring. .nda phm kau ane. .bh,assalamualaikum,peace

Aaa. .

Assalamualaikum and Hellow~~ ive been trying to write sumthn on this blog but i just dnt noe what to write/type xp. .i wrote a few things and dcided nt to post it in the end,hahah. .school holiday is coming to an end. .i kinda miss school,no,ah,actually,the people in the school,hehe. .i miss my friends and teachers. .i also miss to wear the school uniform. .i miss studying!at school xp . .studyn at school aint the same as studyn @ home. .i aah,rely dnt noe what to write,i just feel lyk blogging,hehe. .ok,see u soon. .assalamualaikum n peace

SELAMAT HARI RAYA! ! !

Today is the 3rd of Syawal in Brunei. .i have not been to most of my relatives. .and i have a LOT of relatives. .hmm. .ah,about the song i was talking bout,i have NOT been working on it,sorry! I have too much to do,but smehow managed to blog and check my facebook xp xp soo,i think its gnna take awhile before i actually work on it. .hehe. .last friday,i was at my cousin's house and i saw this girl that i dnt noe. .quite average but i dnt know why i was ATTRACTED to her. .maybe its her smile. .i dnt noe. .huhu. .btw,i still get my ANGPAU! !hahahah. .means im still young! Xp i cud use a lil bit of money to build my studio! ! Yesh! ! Im talking bout random things now cuz i dnt noe what to post. .hehe. .regarding the upcoming exam,i have NOT been studying. .why do i feel lyk i have not been doing anything useful. .i mean,its nt playtime anymore,im aware,but i tend to ignore. .huh. .and one more thing,i have decided to buy an xbox360 after my a levels. .yea! ! And a les paul guitar! ! And an audio interface,a shure 58 mic and a good headphone for my studio! ! I wish everything wud go as planned,amin! ! I have been planning to start a LAWN MOWING business. .my father doesnt think we(me and my friends) wud be succesful,but wat the 'b'ell,lets just give it a try,hehe. .i have high hopes for this ! !hehe,think we cud make around $60 a day and still have time to relax! !haha,imagine this. .wakin up early in the morning. .at 7 o clock we go off to work. .2 hours for each house. .7-10. 10-12. .lunch. .2-4. . After that we can play xbox360! ! Xp xp isnt life simple?haha. .okay,til next time! ! Assalamualaikum and peace!

No post so far

Sorry. .been bz. .but soon i'll post a draft lyric for a song that i have not even think of yet. .it will be based on personal experience,as usual~i dnt noe wat the mood of the song would be like,depends on my. .mood? ?but i'll work on it if i have time and if im not 'lazy'(because writing lyrics means im not studying a.k.a being lazy)hahahah. .insyALLAH. .Sorry again! !assalamualaikum , peace. .

The Capers(pasta n pizzeria) - a review by fauzan

Me and my friends went to have our sungkai yesterday at the Capers in kiulap. .i heard a lot of good things about the restaurant so i had my expectations. .we arrived as early as 5.30 and upon entering the restaurant i had a good feeling about it. .the tiles are the classic white and black,in the middle of the room is the 'kitchen',i cud the see cook working on the pizza.i love the smell of the place,i felt lyk i was somewhere out of brunei. . So the 'receptionist' who is also the waitress asked if we made a reservation.i said yes ,'ak md safwan'..i repeated several times before she went to check on the book(?) . .she ushered us to our table. .

being my first time there,i wasnt sure about how the buffet work,neither did my friends so i asked for some help from the waitress. .after i understand it all,i asked if there is a certain pizza topping she'd like to recommend. .she didnt understand and kept saying that i can pick any topping i want. .and i was like 'ohh ok ok'. .i ordered watermelon freeze,bcuz they only give ONE glass of bandung for the buffet. .quite greedy. .i mean,a constant refill of mineral water wudve been fine! !

At around 6.15,i went to get some pizzas,my friends was staring at me as if i was doing something wrong,ignored them. .so i took a slice and slid it onto my plate. .i misplaced the 'something used to pick up the pizzas' and it fell to the ground,the waitress saw me,picked it up and said 'HAaih!',i was shocked she did that,it was rude,and i was a customer,she shudnt do that,lucky for her i was fasting,i noe i was wrong but still. .another thing i realised was that NON of the waitress was smiling. .hmm. .took a couple of slices and went to my table,went to get some pasta and went back to my table. .

Ok. .They KNEW we were fasting but i cant here the radio or tv bcuz the music overpowered them! !so i HAD to use my phone's radio. .stupid. .the time to break our fast came at last and i didnt see any DATE(kurma,tamar) served. .my first time in this year,breaking my fast without a date. .so i started with the bandung. .took a bite of the pizza,i liked the sauce but the base,not really,it was too hard. .i need to use a lot of force to break my bite off. .i didnt like the psta and regretted taking a lot of it. . .i ate by force. .back to the pizza,3 slices,gone!still hungry! Soo now,i was supposed to wait for the pizza to be cooked. .i waited. . .and waited. , . .aaand waiteddd. . .arghhh! !taking so long! !so i just ate the spaghetti,it was so so. .other restaurants serve BETTER spaghetti. .i ordered lasagna and 5 minutes later the pizzas there! !but i have to be quick or i wont get any. .i succeeded to get a couple,and on the tray there was only one left. .OMG,waited like 15 minutes and this is all they got. .after another 10 minutes WAITING,i asked the waitress if my lasagna is done,she said she'd check. .she never came back to say anything,she mustve FORGOT my order,5-10 minutes later my lasagna came. .very small portion,waited that long. .and that is when i said to my self i will NEVER go to Capers again for a buffet,but ala carte wud be fine. .the lasagna was quite gud,too bad i had to share that small portion with my friend,we expcted it to be in a bigger portion. .

So i paid $20. .$14.80 for the buffet,$3.50 for the drink,the extra is a collection bcuz some of our friend didnt come the restaurant charged a FULL $14.80 for each prson absent. .

Overall i think that $14.80 is an ok price. .u just need to know WHAT u want and order EARLY! !and u'd be fine. .i want to go there again for a buffet and order two pizzas just for my self,EARLY. .then i wont have to WAIT. .haha,then that $14.80 wud be considered VERY CHEAP! !hahah,i love my tummy,its just soo 'fit'. .i mean 6 to 8 slices are nothing! !i give the restaurant a 3.5/5. .most of the turn downs are because of the service. .if u hvnt been there,check it out!

Ok,thats all for now,assalamualaikum and peace!

MISSION FAILED

Assalamualaikum and hello~

As ya'll know if you have read my earlier posts,MH is already taken,i was too late,too late,and theres nothin i cud do about it.So i hv decided to press the 'start' button on my joystick,press 'abort mission','aborting mission (yes/no) ' press yes. . GAME OVERRR~ ~ by doin this,i feel like theres a wall now between me and her and i dont like that,stupid wall. .so to break that wall i need to do somethin,and what i did was,i told her EVERYTHING! ! And she was cool about it,yea~ and that wall is gone! And i had a vision! ! I dnt noe why i keep seeing things but now i see me and her,having fun together,we were FRIENDS! ! I mean, shes not just someone i just greet when she passes by,but someone i really know. .

Amm,i wanna take this oppoturtinity to say i few things to ya'll. .To all of u who have been supporting me,THANK YOU! I really appreciate it. .thanks for the advices,thanks for the motivation and thank u for being there fo me,u guys are the BEST! ! And i also want to thank MH,you taught me a lot of things throughout this mission. .and i thank God for this gift. .here are the list of the people who i give my most appreciation to:

Arif Hamizan - trima kseh yo,kau th urg prtama yg tau psl MH and kau th urg yg mn spoil kn,hahaha. .trima kseh psl sanggup mdgr crita2 ku yg nda brapa siuk atu and thank u sal mbge byk nasihat! Thank u,p/s: NH2! ! ! Xp

Amirul Hisyam Suhaili - assalamualaikum syam. .aah,malasku mnaip eh,bca sja yg ku tulis arah c arif ah,bezanya nganya kau urg kdua tau,and kau nda mspoil kn,hahaha. .

Muiz Mohaimin - trima kseh yo m support aku all the way til msa ne. . Aku mseh g support kau ne,u CAN DO IT! ! Haha.

Hafizul Hakim,Herzan Farahy,Haziq bkaca mata - Arigatou!thanks aah kmu. .psl kmu ktawa mdgr jokes ku,hahaha,apakn. .thanks lah fo everything!mcm blik2 apa yg ku ckp ane,haha.

Zaki Asnan - terima kaseh,AFADEEYYY! ! Hahah,i wish u all the best! !

MH - For making me experience a new thing in life. .for making me smile. .fo making me do things i neva did before,Thank U!hehe. .and for telling me eyes are beautiful?first time ku mdgr tu yo,haha.

Wani - wlaupun last minitku mcritakan,thanks jua,hahaha

drake,kanye west,kid cudi,lil wayne,maher zain - thanks fo accompanying me whereva i go.hehe.

Mentos and Kiss prisa cherry - thanks for being there when i dnt feel confident with my breath,hahah.

The others yg aku nda mntion o lupa mntion - sorry,nda tebuat nama kamu,but Syukran!Thank u thank u thank u! ! ! Nanti dtg aah tym ku open house *awal*

err,i thinks thats all fo now,haha. .HAPPY HOLIDAY! !jgn kn bcuti sjaa,blajar! Jgn jua kn blajar sja,beraya jgn lupa,sdiakn th angpau $10 utk aku. .mun open house mknannya buttermilk chicken sja,jgn th mcm2.hehe. .btw,aku lupa gtau kamu,MH read this blog,hahah,nda ku tau knapa ku bge jua web addressnya. .haha. .soo,atu sja x ah,assalamualaikum! !and gud bye! !

Progress

I could see quite a difference between my current body and last year's. . Yea! ! I have more muscle. .but i still dnt noe if i loss some fat,or gained some more. .hmm. .i need to do some cardio exercises,its been a long time since i left dancing. .i used to dance hard everyday. . .well,nanti th dulu x tu. .ane kn blajar lagii,ngalih eh. .shoulders,biceps and peck nda tgarak. .triceps sja n chest. .n0o0! ! !

Hahaha

Its funny. .i usually dnt share things like this but im in the mood,so,ure lucky,hehe. .u noe,everytym i get a crush on someone,i would try to imagine how it would be if we were together,sometimes i look too far (after marriage and have kids) haha. . Anotha thing,when i feel sad about how pathetic i am,i would try to imagine the world without me and see whats lost,hehe,this regenerates my confidence. . I always try to imagine everything,its fun!and it increases creativity level. .i usually imagine things,to make me feel good and happy. . Here are the things i imagined :
me being a succesful rapper/singer
me having a killer body
me beating up the criminals using my martial art skills
me when im older
me when im dead and all the crying people
my parents,dead,this makes me feel lucky to have them.
My siblings,dead,same effect.
Me being a billionaire
me being poor
me as a playa
me as a magical creature
me as some super hero
me as a super villain
me as a father/husband
me as a woman(yes)
well basically i imagine about everything including how it would be if i have all the things i want or how fun it would be to cut a cucumber. . I dnt noe if u guys also do this,hehe. .bh,atu saja,assalamualaikum xD

*imagining how happy she is right now,and how happy he is,he must be a great guy*

How it ends

I restrained my self from seeing you. .i did not use the path i used to walk through just to see you. .i did not purposely be a little late to physics class just to see you. .despite all this effort,it feels so wrong,its against my will. .i CAN forget you but somehow i dont want to because you are one of the best thing that ever happen to me(cliche xp i dnt noe why i can still be funny,mood spoiler) . .and why would i want to forget something so important? ?something that changed me for the better. .something that made me the person who my friends thought i was but i wasnt and they never find out. .hehe. .i MAY move on but i will NEVER forget you. .i wish i could thank you but i cant tell you why,so i dont dare to. . I think that is all for now,assalamualaikum! ! !

Emmm. .

Im remembering the times before she came. .i was still quite the same person as who i am now,except that i was sinner. .since i knew her,i changed. .i doubt any body noticed. .but,it was a huge change,rely huge. .i am grateful that i found her or else i wudnt be the person i am right now. .this is actually the main reason i like her soo much. .she actually affect me this much. .uhmm. .

Hahaha! ! I hav no idea why im laughing.maybe im crazy

The season come without warning. .the clouds start to leak. .and the sun is starting to fade. .all visions are blurred. .the mists has conquered. .this once beautiful land,it seems like it has reached its time. .the blizzard has replaced the calm breeze. .the coldness has sucked in all the ease. .the mountains sink into the deep sea. .nothing is left nothing to see.total destruction.

I admit it

Yes,i am jealous of my friends,who gets to be with the lady of their choice. . Huuu. . Why cant i too? ? Maybe its not time yet. .maybe its just not my fate. .maybe its not my luck. .maybe its not possible. .maybe its because my hair is curly. .apakan. . Ahh,yes. .i havent made any big moves,medium size pun nada x. .hoho. . Jelesku eh. . Cmaaana ne. . Zzzz *tetidur mkirkan apa yg kn d buat,so msane aku ngigau psl aku blum bca doa,assalamualaikum*

June As results out! !

Huh. .ALHAMDULILLAH I GOT ABB! !A for physics,upgrade from B. .B for maths upgrade from C. .and B for chem,first try. . Didnt expect this,i tot id get lyk BBC. .or lower. .cuz,i werent cnfident. .i ws rely shocked actually,to beat others who worked a lot harder than me. .eath berkat namanya ne. .slalu ne cmane ah. .exam biasa bida rsult,sdh yg bnr ok ya. .hehe,im very happy ryt now. .again,alhamdulillah. .ok,til next tym assalamualaikum. .

They say the best words come from the heart. .lets giv it a test

*Doin this while listenin to FEAR by Drake. .

Seventeen years,ive been livin in this world.
Neva seen a girl,who is shinin lyk a pearl.
Neva been immersed,in this feelin i preserved.
This feelin differ,from the otha ii referred.

Look into my eyes,u know my intention.
Evrytime u smile,send me to a dimension.
Believe me girl u got me with your affection.
I looked into the mirror and didnt see my reflection.
I see u,u are the definition of perfection.
Nurse me,im sick of the rejections.

We can take it slow,n we can make it slower.
Let us get to know,but i aint gonna force ya.
But i would try my best,so that yes,is your answer.
God i pray to be blessed,wish to be accepted and nothing under. .

I wish i cud say more,but non matter what i say. .
It wont show u everything so now let me share.
Open up the door,and you would let me stay.
I would assure u i'd do anything i may. .



Yeah i dont love you,but i would really love to.
Im trynna get to know u,thats all i gotta do.
Please let me,im askin your permission.
U are in my vision,and you are my mission.

Haha,atu saja dulu,syukur th. .ane kn bjalan lge btadarus,aher krg kna mrahi.haha,bh.assalamualaikum.

Huh. . .

So far. .blum lge byk progress,pyh jua aah,klaukn mrapatkn scara face to face pyh pasal jrg bjumpa n mun bjumpa pun bknnya dpt bcrita. .5 minit pun payah. . Cmanakn bprogress tu? ? Aishh. . Harapanku nganya facebook,twitter,msn. .mcm nda mcukupi. . Hmm,buat sja lh apa yg dpt utk mngnali dgn lbih dekat lagi,smuga aku brjaya,amiin. .

Ya Allah

So far blog ane blum ada update yg nada kaitan bne2. .hahaha. . So ne nah update yg psl hal2 lain!

Okeh,1st,as xpcted aku punya maths fail! !but atleast over 30%,mcm yg sirku sruh,hahaha. .happy tplang aku ane

2nd,lately aku slalu nda ckup tdur,pleng bth pun 5 jam jua nganya x. .rinduku tdur 8 jam eh. .

3rd,priksa nda g bataah,so aku kn revise tpi lum jua tbuat.aishh. .mdahan th start esuk aku revise,mlm ane nda dpt sl ada tadarus,hahaha.

Ok,atu th nganya tu,syukur th.assalamualaikum

Nadaa

I miss u

Spirit

Im starting to like her. .im already in a state where i could easily say YES to her(i doubt shell ever prpose to me). .i cudve continued doing all my moves without feeling bad at all but when competition is there. . I just feel incompetent. . I dnt even noe if she shud cntinue this. . I mean theres a better guy out there who wants her so why wud she ever pick someone with less quality? Huh,imma giv her just a few more chances to show me that she likes me before i say good bye. .

XD XD XD

During my 'study',i have found these characteristics of hers:

softspoken,and she have a cute voice

she always SMILE which is why i like her soo much! And her smile is,soo wonderful.

She always seem calm and im jealous. .why cant I be as calm? ? This i also like. .

She is a muslimah,yes,the MOST important thing i look at. .hehe. .

She makes me nervous. .this i dont like,hahaha. .but its a sign! Hmmm. .

Shes not shy and i think,i think,shes kinda coy but still nt sure on this. .

She likes me,Oh i wish! !hahah!

Oryt,til then! !assalamualaikum

The feelin was real

I was with my friends and her. .we were just hanging out,doing something. .i liked her,i wanted to make a move but i just didnt. .we came to this place and a group of wankstars trynna mess with us. .i told the leader to not disturb us but somehow he tried to attack me using a wooden stick. .i fought him back using a wooden stick,i was glad i went to kendo training. .one on one was okay but then the other members of the gang came n beat me up. .i fell to the ground and thought of her,i hoped that she'd be fine. .the gang went away and i knew that i was dead. .my friends cried,she did too. .i wish ive told her about my feelings but there was nothing i cud do. .time passed,id always watched her,i was a soul or a ghost. .one day,the gang came again and disturbed my friends,they were assaulting them. .somehow,by the will of god,i was reincarnated. .as soon as i was on my feet i went to protect my friends,i tried my best to not die. .luckily,the gang gave up and ran away. .i turned around and suddenly i was hugged.and stunned. .i hugged her back before i told her that we should let go of each other,i apologized. .we stood there gazing into each others eyes,cherishing the moment. .i was happy,i was in love. .i wish the moment never ends,but i had to go. .gud bye,i love u. .

Where the F are you when i need u. . .CONFIDENCE! ! !

Haha,ive never felt as nervous as today since like,NTAAH! ! And uhh,didnt get to chat wit her cuz she went home early. .aishh! ! Nda apaa,sabtu ane adaaa! ! !

Aaah. .dmana ada kbaikan,ada kburukan. .

Yea,i noe dat we've been doin good,i hv nt done any big moves but we slow n steady. .but what im afraid is dat people are gnna noe dat im trynna hit on her. .n so if anythn bad happens,lots of people wud noe and wud embarrass me. ."YA ALLAH" i keep sayin dat now cuz its better than saying t*ie. .i just wish everythin goes well. .i dnt noe if i shud giv more time or to take it to the next level,hanging out,having a good chat. .i rely need a one o one cnvrsation. .so dats the update.peach

"Siuk eh sama kau ane eh"

Im high~

Yea! ! !

4.talk to her again,without shaking. .DONE! ! !but my ears was red,theyr always red when im excited.but being 'pressured' by math exam was a great excuse.
Todays a great day,eventho after those effin maths exam that i noe i eff'd up because today i get to talk with her,TWICE! ! Im also glad dat SHE started the second conversation,dus dat mean anything,hmmm. .and so after a great chat ofcos i was happy but i kept my face neutral bcus i might get teased more by my friends! And they still did! Ya Allaaaah. . I just hope she or her fren didnt hear my frens or me from the distance. .so my next mission is to have lunch with her.pretty simple but chllenging. .lets do this!
Oh yeah,u might realize how im rushing all this. .this is bcuz if theres competition(a guy whos also hittin on her) ,i dnt wanna be too late n lose her. .another reason is because of the change in the way i think about having relationships. .i used to think that people shud get to no each other well before being a couple but now i think people shud just get to know a lil about each other and see if they like each other,n then,be in a relationship and this is the time when the couple shud rely get to noe each other! Nda jaa? Hehehe.think dats all for now. Peace.

Mission MH

Ok,what it do. . ?

Its been awhile but i think its time to release that flirtatious bit of me. .the one that have been imprisoned for a long time. .ok heres my plan,tat tat tara! ! :

1. Dnt be stupid,use short cut,be friends in facebook (done)
2. Get noticed,greet her in school (done)
3. Try to talk to her,grab every chance (done)
4. Talk to her again,without shaking
5. Buy her a drink,have lunch together,get to know her.try to make her laugh.not laugh at her.try not to drink too much.do not look elsewhere.do not look at her body.
6. Ask for her phone number,if she doesnt give,dnt lose hope,do not blush,relax.bunkes.go to step 7.if she gives, congrats,im on a gud track.
7. Get to know her even more and let her or make her know more about myself.DO NOT USE FACEBOOK TO DO THIS.
8. If she likes me,her friends will start to look at me in a funny way,or even talk to me.
9. I should be proud to be able to do all this. . By this time i shud noe a lot about her and i must be comfortable with her oredy.
10. The confession.this is the funny part that everyone has to deal with. She obviously noe my intention but somehow it needs confirmation. If im a real man,imma do it face to face,its the best way. .if im a less brave person,i may use my phone(by this time she must have already gave me her phone no.)
11. If she accepts me, be happy. .if she rejects me,be normal,leave her. .if she doesnt say a thing,give her time to think. .

Time Requirement : less than 1 month but for a person like me,its gnna take awhile. .
Mana : i need a lot of these
luck : again, a lot needed.
Difficulty : beginner

WOHOO LETS DO THIS!
THE END

MH MH MH

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! ! ! ! ! Sory,i just feel lyk screamin XD

Express

See ive got problems with my friends.
I used to be happy but now im sad again.
Im not gonna hide i aint gonna pretend.
Imma spit it to ya face cuz dats wat i intend.

Evrytym in class imma giv ya some opinion.
U just shook yo head many times itd be a million.
Aint even considerin it cuz u assume dat i am wrong.
Tho it hurts alot but i just move along.

I noe i aint that clever but why cant u listen to me speak.
U aint wanna help me cuz u aint invite me to ya crib.
All of yall there,maybe twice a week.
And i am just in here,i am a man in need.

Am i not good for yall,am i a fucking trouble?
Tell me the truth bitch dnt u trynna be humble.
I noe there must be somethin dat u dnt like bout me.
If u tell nothing,then no change there will be.

I dnt noe how to explain this feelin.
Im on my bed n lookin right into the ceilin.
My heart is broken and my brain is killin.
Fuck yall. . Wats all this meanin

Excitement and anxiety

I am the bery bery eksaitet to live the next level of my life : being an independent uni student. I have imagined my self and my existing friends living under the same roof. Oh how fun it would be. I cud see my self laughing and jumping around. I cud sense the presence of a shiny black ps3 connected to the big grand full 1080p HD tv and the full set of rock band instruments ready to rock on! Ahh,but then i realize,i hvnt even went through the exams yet,so lets leave that dream for now and focus on reality

Its time

Its just an exam away before i cud decide which path i would choose next. .n that exam is less than 3 months away. .i am very excited yet scared to sit for the exam. .i want to get at least BBB for this exam. .i believe i cud achieve that,hmm. .

Its been awhile since the last time i talk about my love life. .nothing has changed(soo disappointed).im still single.but i hve my eyes on this MH! But the chances of me to even be friends with her is quite low. .and uhh,time is not with me. .haha!i still rmember when i tried to speak to a girl and she didnt reply me and asked her fren to talk for her instead,and i was 'rejected',it was embrassing,my cnfidence dropped real hard. .but it was a gud exprience. .ahh,n theres anotha gurl whose prsonality i lyk but her physique was so so. .her fren gave a hint that the girl was intrsted but i sort of didnt do my move and now when i tried to talk to her she only rsponded with short sntnces,maybe shes shy,hmm. . N now i got a new target and i will try to get to know her,muahahaha! ! ! I used to be angry to my fren cuz he said that ' pretty girl = taken ' ,i was against that 'law' and i ws ryt. .he is now with the pretty girl of his choice. . But somehow now im starting to blieve in that statement,buwh! But if other people think the same way and they think that shes taken and that she wont be intrsted,she wud be more open for rlationship bcuz she dnt noe that a lot of people are having intrst for her and that she wud have to take the chance and fall for the prson that actually shows intrest for her. .hohoho. .omg typing is a lot harder than talking! Oryt,i hope u undrstand gibberish. . Til next time,piss!

X8D

When i talk to my old frens,those who used to be close with me when i was a small kid, i cant help but miss those times.evry little thing that happned was an adventure,i wish i cud re exprience those moments. .it was so peaceful,soo fun. . Compared to my life ryt now.well i now hv more knowledge and answers to the questns i had as a lil kid but i just dnt undrstand why it used to be more fun,hmm

The trend

Its the SAME thing evry single year. . Get a crush,get t noe the prson,get real close,sumthn happen that produces sufficient energy to break the triple bond and produce a radical,then i bcome unstable,then its like we just noe each other,not even 'friends',contact each other like once a month,this stupid! . .am i gnna do this again? ?

Oryt

Think i hv had enuf fun fo this holiday. .its tym to get back up and be a student again. .i dnt wnna disappoint my parents,my teachers and lastly,Me. .nobodys stopping me,nt u nt her nt him nt them and nt it. .i wish this spirit stays. .i hv no time for games,no time for girls and no time to waste. .this exam is gnna decide which path i'd go in my life. .and i wanna to that ONE particular path,the path ive chosen since i was a kid,the path that'll bring me to my greatest happiness. .i'll be there,its a promise to my self

Huu

People change,things change,situations change. .everything cud change.so do i,so do u,so do them. .u cud go from nothing to somethng.from somthng to nothng.i mean,an antique vase used to be $5 vase. .tetris games used to be very popular. .but that takes time,a lot of time. .but what im facing is a sudden change.i cnt seem to adapt fully.

Yes,u cant undrstand this

RnB

Its been awhile,hizaki kept me away from hiphop but now its back. .i love to listen to drake's songs,theyr rely catchy and easy to listen to. .so the beats im makin this time are inspired by drake. .hee. .i just love to sing bout love

New headphones!

Yes,i lost that nice white nokia headphones. .so,i was soo dsperate to listen to music so i bought this $7 blue headphones from 'bit'. .its quite gud,its my fav colour,its stylish,it sounds better and clearer than dat nokia one but it has ONE weakness. .it has LESS BASS! !even if i put the bass to max,it didnt fix the problem. .well,have to get used to this

Strength vs agility

I hve been thinking about this. .if a fighter of heavenly strength is to fight head to head to a fighter of unbelievable speed,who would win? The strong dude may throw powerful strikes but theres a high chance that he'll miss. . The fast dude may hit the other dude a lot but does his hit actually do damage? ? The strong dude will win if the fast dude gets tired n bcome slow. .the fast dude will win if he cud hit the weak spots. . Hehe,random

Hmm

Im planning to renew this place,make it cool and unique. .hmm,maybe tmrrow night. .possible theme : starwars,no more heroes,sumthn spacy. .no not lil wayne. .hmm if i put hizaki dat'll change the whole mood of this place. .i shudnt. .we'll see

Too many interest? ?

Is it possible for me to be a rapper/rnb singer and a vkei guitarist?a kendoka and a pesilat?a hardcore gamer and an A star student?and i still have other things like workin out,photoshop-ing,video editting,diy and family! !isnt that too much?how do i cope with all this?hahahah. .life is short,and theres a whole lot of things to do,its not wrong being an adventurer is it?

Bini bini?

What is a student?a person who studies. .what is a good student?a student who not only studies in school or during school time but also independently or with friends during free time. .i have encountered people who compliments other people saying that they are intelligent and smart and all that. .but i also sense that the prson complimenting has the potential to be intelligent and smart too!only they didnt put effort. .a lot of teenagers do not take studying seriously,and are spoiled!like my sister,who i never see do any school work and always asking for my phone everynight and goes online and sleeps late in the morning and I HAVE TO WAKE HER UP EVERY MORNING AND SHE IS 14! I mean wtf?what a lazy person. .n when i dnt giv her my phone she'd suddenly be so mean,nt just to me but to others as well. .the laptop,is now always in her room,which is her fault,everytime she takes the laptop away from my room she never puts it back in place,i never complaind. .but everytime i knock on the door she wont respond,i have to knock harder and she be like "nda payah cma2 wah,brijap" i was like,apakaaan,mun namanya nda mbuka pintu,siapa th suruh,d katuk nda mdgr. .theres also times when she turns on the music while shes in the bathroom n when anybodies callin for her she wont be able to hear them,stupid. .Her topic for the day is always about drama at school bla bla bla students frm stpri hate her bla bla soas bla bla she also laughs at people's pictures on facebook n criticize. .as if shes perfect. .thats ALL she does,everydaay. .she wont even cook,if werent told,i mean shes a girl!bini bini bah!but i dnt see her do any bini bini punya krja. .and on one particular day i went to my cousin's haus,preparing for the majlis,people were cleaning plates,me n ma dad setting the mic n speakers as usual and where my sister at?Shes still asleep! !girls her age was working n shes still asleep?bri malu jua tuu. .gila eh. .im gnna stop for now cuz i dnt see any end to this topic. .assalamualaikum

I am fun-art

There is this girl that i like,
i noe her n i just might,
wanna make her wanna make her mine,
cuz it feels so right.

But she goes to the smart boys,
not like me i just play with toys,
hittin things n makin noise,
she got sick listenin to my voice

evrytime she laughs she struck a thunder to my abdoment,
n i'd be masochistic for that moment,
i aint gettin but im hopin,
that shell get her doors open,

but she goes to the genius,
they talk shit bout the universe,
n i just sit n write this verse,
feel like gettin my head immersed.

Tried to talk but it never last,
tried to effect but i cnt impress,
she went away so in my face!
In my face! Face! Face!

But she goes to the not me,
i cud see she being naughty,
but i cud neva get that for me,
now i aint got no company. .

But she goes to the. . .
To the. . .
Damn this fucked up

Lucid Dreamer buang buring

Lucid Dreamer

I have been searching for a good name to replace 'young jok3r' . .last night a friend of mine told me that im a lucid dreamer. .so i was like,lucid dreamer sounds cool n unique n i googled to see if anybody is using that name,n fortunately no. .so,yeah,Lucid Dreamer is a possible replacement. .

Some random shit

Ok. .maths exam was,uhh so disappointin,nt wat i expcted,it gets harder now for me to get an A for maths. .hmm,since i was in high school i was never an 'A' maths student,wat makes me think i cn be one now? ?bcus i chnged?NAAH!haha,im the same old kid in disguise. .haha

i realized dat ANYBODY can talk behind anybody's back (nt literally but yea) even his/her friends. .so i ws thnkin,wat things to they talk about me bhind my back?hmmm. .

Btw,me n safwan planned to change our grup name,n CHANGE OUR STAGE NAMES! !i noe,this is big stuff,since lot of people actually called me joker. .well,i have to drop 'young jok3r' bcause its too common,now i gtta find sumthn unique,any suggestions?PAU?

Back to the school stuffs,i will now reveal FAUZAN'S PLAN TO SUCCESS FTPS ! ! Basically,the idea is to stayback at school evry school day n study wit ma frens,yes as simple as dat. .i realizd i cud cover lots of topics in dat short time
THE ADVANTAGES :
i will be very prepared for exams.
I wont waste my time(i usually play my pc at this times)
i can chill during the exam months while others might stress (what i sight!)
and i can join activities such as TALENTIME,TALENTINE or watsoever. .i am rely lookin forward for it,hehe. .

THE DISADVANTAGES :

Umm,cnt figure out xp

ayt,dats ol 4 now,assalamualaikum n bye

Ohh yeah i frgot whre i put my wig

Aint got the curls no mo,ma head is shinin ryt na. .mny people giv negativ feedbacks,they wre lyk 'sayang! knapa kau gunting? wat hppned to your hair? I loved yo fro! ' yea had to deal wit this. .the reason i cut ma hair is cuz exams real near,n i dnt think fros r allowd,hehe. .well,its the old me again

Ok. .thank u~

And the 2nd place goes to *drum roll * KRIHIIK PERODAKSHEN ! ! ! *applause* WOW wat an experience,hving to beat 4 other gud looking videos,i was proud,eventho we lost to iskandar,bcause we lost to a champ. .its like losing in a fight with bruce lee while u beat jackie chan n jet li. .we were given a trophy,which i will keep safe. .i thank all the actors n supporters of this project n the judges too. .without u my dream wont come true. .the video will be uploaded soon to youtube along with the 'we r the world 'cover' by krihiik perodakshen actors n director(me) ' hehe. .i think that is all. .ok~thank u~

Today

I am happy and proud to get a B for my gp APR. .i love gp,n i dislike eas. .gp seems to be more motivational n more fun. Todays like the other days overall,topped with a lil more happiness.somehow today i had fun studying,alhamdulillah. .the sad part of the day is that,no one said sorry for ystrday's event. .the birthday boy didnt reply my message,i complaind,he gave a valid reason but he cudve just said the magic word 'thank u' at that moment,cudve made me smile. .yes i hve been emo this week,for a reason that i do not know. .

Tmrrow is the day when the winner of the 'xpress video' cmptition is revealed. .wafi,one the judge keep teasing me. .i am nrvous but smehow i feel the confidence because wafi keep imitating the scenes in front of me. .hehe,well i think we hv a big chance of winning. .

Dats all for now,piss

Fuuuck! ! !

What a terrible day! !its nt the weathr or anythn. .today's my fren's birthday,it shudve been a blast. .when i found out i got an E for physics while my frens got C,i was down,but i tot to myself "its ok,after this u'll be celebrtn fizul's bday,itll b fun" ,after class went to the pool,fizul blum ada. .so,i went to the with saf1 n marul,keepng em company. .then after abis marul makan c waie dtg,bgtau yg abis sdh event tadi. .i ws like,WHAT THE FUCK! ! !I DNT GET TO SING FOR HIM AND DNT GET TO SEE HIS MALU MALU FACE? ? ! !damn ws i mad,but,managed nt to show it. .well at least i get to eat the cake. .i tot. .when i got there,theres only this pieces of cake on a white disposable plate,n that is left,n they were like "u three can share. ." thats it,i ws rely disappointd. .i didnt eat the cake,'they' dnt even offer me the cake properly. .after all this time waitn for dat moment,n i missd it?i ws gnna cry,esp when i ws ber wudhu.think my eyes went red. .failed my physics,n failed to celebrate my fren's birthday,im a failure. .u noe i have been jimating my money,n $2 is a lot for me now,spent that much,n i get nothing? ?wtf! ! !damn. .i hate this soo much! !aaaaaah! ! ! !

Laaaa

Random topic. .

People often say we should treat people like we treat ourselves. .personally,i dnt agree wit that. .through prsonal experience,some give gud reactions n some,bad. .so,i think the meaning of 'treat ourselves' is how we want people to treat us. .so,we shud treat people how they want to be treated. .apakan,buang buring

Unfairness

Ok,people get angry at me but hvnt done a anything wrong n the people who actually did something wrong got away. .n these angry people were aware of that. .why me? ?am i always the victim?why am i always the 1st one to be suspected when sumthng bad happened?n never wud i be suspected when sumthng gud happend. .im the last person to be in their thought. .mybe bcause im nt good looking?non rely look at the heart of sumone. .

I figured i out! ! !

The reason why dnt hve a girlfriend bcuz i dnt need one! I wont even bother puttin any effort into as i always say "bhapa aku mcari bne2,durang yg cari aku" hahaha. .well dat dusnt seem to work. .well,dnt rely care tho,hahaha. .as long as i dnt waste my precious time. .hahohe

Damn

Watching the birthday girl jump today made me jealous. .i rmember my 15th birthday. .when non of my classmates knew it was my birthday. .i rmembered theirs. . .why cnt i have dat special moment?am i not qualified?i mean,the whole day i ws waiting for any of my friends to greet me,but no,none did. .my 16th birthday,i dnt quite rmember,mybe theres nothing to rmember at all,except for the greetings on facebook which kinda shaped my smile a bit. .i rmember givin my frens presents for their birthday n my mom asked 'kau punya birthday ada durng bge kn?' sumthn lyk dat,which made me think for awhile. .huh. .at least my family made me cakes

I want that n i want that n that , that too n that

Well my list of things i 'need' :

a new laptop charger
2 x 2gb 800 mhz sodimm ram
adobe after effects
a new laptop keyboard(black)
a metallic blue acrylic spray paint
soldering iron,solder
a drill
a girlfriend,hahaha(since fantastic four,aku nganya nda ada,apa jua nganya kadiaku ane)

Heartbreak

U noe how it feels when people see you as a useless person?n they keep telling you that indirectly?it feels like shit aint it?if it ws a joke i wudnt mind,if they even try to make it seem to be a joke eventho i noe it wsnt,i wudnt mind this much. .i did my job and in the end,not appreciated. .n their mind is set u cant convince them their wrong. .its all fucked up. .damn

The end

I was afraid this would happen. .when you no longer need me. .when you no longer have the time for me. .even if you have,it's up for me to figure out,when. .i used to not do that because you used to always tell me,when. .i find it pleasing to hear your stories and sometimes,be part of it. .now i don't hear a word from you,no,not anymore. .i was your diary now im your wall. .and soon,im just a lost memory. .

Perempuan

Ya tuan tuan,apa dia perempuan,mari kita bualkan,bagi balik suapan(feedback xp). . .dahulu byk yg ayu,skrg byk karas mcm kayu,dulu byk kata manis,skrg kata nda btapis,baju nda blapis,alasannya umu abis. .dulu lawa btudung,skrg rambut bsurung,dulu snyum pkai bju kurung,mun skrang murung murung. .kalau dlu memburu habuk,skrng ane melayan facebuk. .skrang ane pyh kn mcari yg mantap,yg ada sja yg showopkantop,nada yg handal melap lap,atau memop mop,yg m talk talk,m rock rock ada tu. .eath pyh ku msa ane nyamu. .bh out ku eh,ngalihku. .assalamualaikumwarahmatullahiwabarakatu. . .

BASTARD! ! !

I miss you

The power of randomness

Sometimes u when u cry,u dnt noe what ur crying for,u just want to. . .why does this happen?is it because of boredom?or is it more than that?through prsonal xprience,this hppens when u thought of something that cud make u sad,the reason for the sadness isnt clear,so u shed some tear,gettin deeper into the feelin,trynna figure out wats this sadness bout,then u end up thinkin bout it over n over again til u cant think. .wow,amazing

Love is taboo

Wat the f*****ck?(travis touchdown style) i hv nt touchd the wii for days now,proud of that. .but i started to get back to mkin beats n now i check up on instructables mny times a day. .n my books r so clean without my fingerprints on em. .huh,wheres that hero thats suppsed to vaporize my laziness?yes,its rhetorical. .the juniors hav come to ptek,n they made the place hotter,literally. .but the gud news is that my eyes get extra exrcise,its one of those work outs that u neva want to stop doin,e.g. The jaw curl(eating),the mental focus(dreaming),the forearm curl(waggling wii mote) and etc. .the diy club we(me n clown) were going to propose has little progress,we hvnt finish the proposal letter nor we talked to sir makarimi(the teachr we'd like to supervise us).so the clubs probably wud be officially on due the next two weeks.as excited as i am,the june as exam is gettin near,guess wat,NO PREPARATION AT ALL!hahah,oryt lets stop here,i wnna sleep,i got a silat prformance tmrrow,i dnt wanna look weak n sleepy infront of the ladies,hahah.ayt.assalamualaikum.

Bleee. . .

It always make me cry everytym i looked back to see the things we used to do together. .life was so much better. .yes,there hve been good things happning since then but my life lacks that sweetness i crave. .the only way i cud get that is to make someone laugh(without forcing themself).but its not the same.its like artificial sweetener but im looking for sugar. .huh,lifes got ups n downs i noe. .i wish i cud skip those downs. .damn

Apakn neee

I feel diffrent. .things hve changed. . .i am no longer dat A student i used to be. .not the B's. .not the C's. .how am i supposed to fulfill my dreams when i gt D's and an E for my mpr. .
I nt only bcome less smart,but also less motivated,less caring. . .what hd hppned?mutation?i dnno. .im just nt me anymore,im just an ignorant. .i feel weak evryday,i cant cncntrate,how am i suppsed to study?dammit. .

Touchdown

65% for maths. .nt rely satisfied but alhamdulillah. .byk cuai,bri bnci. . .gp tdi testnya ok,but rsultnya na ku tau ah,mdahan sja ok. .amiin. .bh,atu th sja dulu ah ah.nanti2 g bcrita,kn bdating ku dulu,eh salah,kn away ku lu. .bh out,assalamualaikum

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Wat a fool i am. .setaiiee sajaa! ! !kn dpt markah tinggi konon!chem nganya 50%!nda panat dmanaaaaa. .apath lagi physics yg sirnya ckp 'knapa nda bjawab atu?' aishh! ! !i hve failed u again,dr.fauzan. . .

Desperate Struggle

Nda g bth kn priksa tiga bulan saja lagi,
neves atu neves tapi nda cukup motivasi,
aku prlukan seorang kwn yg dpt memerhati,
mengarahknku utk mbuat sgala omok kna bgi,
mnyuruh aku mbca buku dari malam sampai pagi,
biar aku penuh ilmu dari pala sampai kaki,
biar brisi ilmu mcm brisinya badan babi

Wtf

I write the same thang evrytym

Hows it goin

So. .been awhile. .to b honest,i hv nt been busy,just lazy. .i even do my hws in last minute,huh,wats hppnin to me. .well,im trying to refocus to my studies. .despite those failed attempts,i will nt stop. .the 1st assesment will b comin soon,i want to do my best for it. .prove to mr ong kok pai dat i changed,prove to sir rozaimme dat i have wat it takes to be an engineer,n to miss raimie dat I CAN get great results,i didnt write sir maxim cuz hes new,haha,he dnt noe wat to expect. .well i thinks dats all. .see this blog soon. .

So. .

Its been awhile. .been busy. .wit skool n stuff. .stuff includes wii. .heheh. .i hv been lazy lately,now im tryin to get back up. .i dnt want to b hangat2 taie ayam,i wanna be hangat2 matahari,hahah. .so,think dats it,just a short update. .hehe. .

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Something is missing. .is it joy?dnt think so. .i laughed more than enough evryday. .is it sadness?dat cnt be,bcause i think dats wat im feeling ryt now. .so wat is it? ? ?i dnt noe. .i dnt feel like my self lately. .my friends probably realized that. .is this the cause of my new azam? ? ?i dnt noe. .i just dnt noe

Jua lagi nda bhabuk. .

Wow. .nda ku sngka skulah siuk. .maths aku mkin suka,chem aku mkin focus n phm thanks to cigu bru yg cara nya ngajar andang typeku,english AS tukar jdi gp express,n physics so far so good. .goal ku ialah utk mdptkn kputusan yg baik utk 1st assesment. .smuga brjaya,hehe

Uy

Uy,yu,uy,yu,uy,yu! ! ! ! !nada dgn ku cmani,mana kh ya. .