The new chapter

Assalamualaikum and hello. .*inspects surrounding* hmm,i expected this place to be more abandoned-looking,with dust and spiderwebs everywhere. .i am disappointed. .aah,its nearly 2 in the morning. .i shouldn't be blogging right now. .i shouldn't even be AWAKE right now *Satsuki's song in my head*. .Well,a few updates won't hurt,would it? So how is my LIFE nowadays? Aah,i finally have a life after leaving the '' affordable casual dining restaurant '' which name i wouldn't mention. .Pizza Hut~ must've got some sort of soap in my mouth,its so slippery that words just slip off. .that certainly won't be a good thing to happen when Im teaching. .wait,did I say TEACHING? Im a teacher now? Yes,I am. .So I am Mr Fauzan the teacher. .I consider my self lucky. .I mean,being a teacher,who would've expected? So Alhamdulillah. .I teach Physics,Combined Science,General Paper and Mathematics at a tuition centre in Kiulap. .Its a lot of fun! At first I was gonna be like the cool,macho,serious type of teacher but after a few weeks the wild side of me just exposed it self to the students. .lol. .Alhamdulillah again,i have more pay than I had in Pizza Hut,LESS STRESS! I get to have dinner with my family now and I don't have to put on a fake smile all the time. .I am truly grateful. .You know what? i really don't know what to write cuz theres just too many things i want to say. .Education! ! i am nearly done with my UCAS thingy,just need to apply and I really hope I'd get a placement at Sheffield Uni. cuz thats where most of my buddies are ALREADY ACCEPTED. .yeah im kinda left behind. .*wait for meee~~* now,LOVE talk! !how is my love life? Fantastic ! But is it love? Its weird that im using the word 'love' now cuz WE kinda restrict ourselves from using that word. . She's NOT my girl,and im NOT her boy. .or man,what ever. .She's the person that maybe one day i would propose to marriage. .She's my PFW ! ! PFW is a term i created a few seconds ago which stands for Potential Future Wife. .yeah,thats about it. .sometimes i feel bad about my self for making her sound like an object rather than a human. .I mean i just called her PFW! Which kinda reminds me of BMW. .apakan. .I don't know. .I don't want to give her my all because I am not sure,of us. .We are like 10 years to go before we finally marry,if we are meant for each other. .What if,we are not? I don't want her or me to get hurt. .I miss her right now,shes busy studying cuz exam is near. .sometimes i compare the feeling of being lonely and the feeling of missing someone and try to figure out which is worse. .lets talk bout music. .aah,i think i have managed to improve my vocals,hehe. .Sound and pitching is better now. .but i still need to do more practice. .My studio? I have spent nearly $700 on studio stuffs. .$120 on headphones. .$110 on mics. .$70 on cables. .$260 on mixer. .$84 on sound card. .and im planning to get more mics,hahahah. .hmm,i think i wanna get some sleep now,hehe. .Assalamualaikum and Gud morning. .

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Assalamualaikum! ! !and ALAW! ! !sory yo lama dh nda bupdate,mcm blek2 dh aku ckp cmane,hahaha. . .adakn ku gtau bh,ngaleh dh ku blogging sbnrnya,hehe,sibuk sja lge ku. .aku dh kerja,d pija hut mall,now as a full time waiter,eath ngaleh atu x,hehehe. Siuk jua laa,byk kwn pilipino,hahah,brunei pun ada jua laa. . .aku suka ambil order yo!mcm siuk bckp dgn stranger atu,lonely x ku,hahahah. . .mcm2 ulah customer ane,ada yg snyum2,ada yg ktawa2,ada yg marung2,ada yg marah2,hahah. .ada yg bcali,ada yg serius,ada yg mcm nda ingau kn ordernya,hahah. . .n aku suka serve food,n pnyap2 meja. .siuk laaah~tapi ngaleh,hahaha. .exercise jua laa. . .hehe. . .hari ane aku off!eath aku dpt blogging ane,hehe. . .and awu,aku jrg dh blog cne,pasal aku ada "diary" baru O.O sorry aku curang arah kau wahai youngjok3r.blogspot.com. . .huhuhu. . .ok,cmane planku kn krja ne. . .3-4 bulan kerja full time. .after atu aku kn buat lagu lagi,so tukar jadi part time. .hehehe,kalau buleh aku mau jadi cook!hehe. .mcm cuzenku aah,ea tpulang dpt position atu,hoho,jelesku. . .hehe,bh,atu jer kali fo today. .assalamualaikuum~ n peace

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Assalamualaikum people. .n hye. .havent blogged for quite awhile. .sorry about that. .and theres a reason why,which i will explain shortly hehe. .but before that,i have an announcement to make. .remember MH?and in the earlier post i mentioned her sister,remember her?lets call her YH instead of EH,hehe. .anyway,what i want to tell you guys is that,im into her now. .sorry i didnt tell u before. .i wanted to tell but then its kinda awkward to do so cuz she reads this blog,hehe. .and that is why i havent blogged for awhile. .so why am i tellin u guys,now?its because i'll be blogging about her from now on. .hehe. .so,i owe guys a story?hahah. .well,imma make it short. .rmember when i tried to forget MH?thats when she came,she helped me in deciding what to do. .so i moved on and soon find out that i started to have feelings for her. .hoho. . .so one day i kinda confessed indirectly,i wasnt expecting anything,i just think that i shouldnt hide,i never liked hiding,hahah. .but then she told me that she liked me too. .wooaah. .we started to get closer since then. .and then MH found out about this,hahah. .MH asked me "why her?is it bcuz shes the closest to MH?scary" didnt get to answer that,hahah. .but no!its not bcuz shes like another MH,but its bcuz shes my type. .that simple xD hahah. .but why am i blogging bout her now?bcuz. .we wont be contacting each other starting tomorrow since shes gnna be busy fo school,and ofcourse i'll be down,and expressing my self in this blog would help me feel better,hehe,besides i'd be bored without her so blogging will do to get rid of that boredom. .hahah. .u guys must be wonderin how she is like that she gets my interest. .so maybe next post?hehe. .alryte thats all. .hope u guys understand what i was trynna say,hahah,ngaleh ku cek wah kalau ada mistake kh apakh. .bh,assalamualaikum n peace. .

Huss

Wadap mai. .assalamualaikum,my friends expect me to update my blog soo,here it is! Aah,ok,lets start. .today,me and ma friends(saf,syam,muiz and hairuz) went out to hang out,its been awhile you know since the last time. .we went to the bank first to withdraw some cash then we headed to shopping.com.bn cuz i wanted to buy an external hard disk. .a 500Gb xhd for $99,quite a good price for me. .i had lil trouble deciding which colour to choose. .there were only two options,black or red. .the black one is the common one so if i buy that it'll be the same as other people's. .i rarely see people with the red one but im not really a fan of red (Sorry red lovers xp) . .after a few minutes of thinking, i chose the red cuz i think that the black one is khnda dull looking. .paid for it,went to the car,and off to the mall (the only building bruneians call a mall). .i messaged MH earlier and she'd be watchin the movie with us later. .as soon as we reached the building,our stomachs demanded food. .but we went to buy the tickets before we went to KFC,I wanted McDonalds but went to KFC. .ordered the zinger xmeal and didnt expect safwan to pay for me,thanks bang chap! !only finished eating the fried chicken,ate like 1/8 of the burger and half of the french fries. .so i gave the leftover to Muiz who was seatin infront me and keeps sayin 'aku lum plang knyang ne' evertym i said 'nda ku t abis eh'. .and i didnt even finish my drink. .maybe its the porridge i had for breakfast. .i mean,i usually eat a LOT! !one x meal is a no problem! Anyway,after eatin me n c saf we went to the toilet. .and then to UTAMA GRAND to buy chewing gums to refreshen our breaths. .after that we met with the others,then me and syam went to cinema 7 to watch NGANGKUNG while the others went to watch TRON LEGACY. .Waie,MH and her sister was supposed to join me and syam but they came in late. .they didnt miss anything important tho. .the movie was ok, 6/10 and im being generous xD Funny but not THAT funny,i only laughed real hard when i read an address printed on the lorry in the movie. .the address says "kg btg bjuntai",well,i find it funny. .after that we went to perform our zuhur prayers cuz the movie started a minute after the azan so we didnt have time to pray first. .became the imam in the surau and it felt like when i was in PTEK X( our next destination was Dairy Queen. .waie ordered French Vanilla,syam and MH the usual Blizzard Orea,i had Blizzard Maltesers while MH's sister (lets call her EH now) did nt want to have anything for whatever reason,hahah. .so the five of us sat at the table,the boys talked with the boys,and the girls with themselves. .hoho,i cant think of anything to talk about with the girls. .the other boys came and kidnapped Waie from us to go to NBK and play COD 4:Modern Warfare. .so it was the four of us,and there was that awkward silence. .hoho. .MH suggested me to talk of my experience during the interview. .and the nyanyah side of me took control ,breaking the silence. .soon,there was that silence again but EH came to the resque and spoke to me "jln2 eh" and i was like,why didnt i thought of that? Hah. .we walked to the OTHER arcade ( cuz i dnt noe the name,its not uniarcade,its the other one). .i bought 4 tokens confidently,stepped into the karaoke room and was shocked when there was no token slot. .RUPANYAA,i was supposed to tell the people in charge. .hoho. .its $1 per song and i wanted two songs. .i "sang" first. .didnt noe what song to sing so i went for "knock you down" by keri hilson. .it was a DISASTER! ! I sounded soo horrible,i barely rmember the song. .i was so frustrated that i listened and sang a long to the song when i reached home. .a stupid dcision,hahah. .then the Hs sang "Fearless" by taylor swift. .they sounded good,WAAAYY better than i did. . Hahah. .still having the tokens,we used it to shoot hoops. .it was time for the Hs to go home so its bye2 time. .me and syam went to the surau again to perform asar prayer. .we met the others at the fun donut (Waie's treat xD) before we were off to home. .and that was it. .hahah. .i had fun today. .and tomorrow kan main badminton! Yehee~ mana racquet ku aah?hoho,minjam ja dri c syam. .ookie assalamualaikum n peace~

Solved

Assalamualaikum and happy saturday! !today im feeling like english baybaay~ ookie. .it seems that as i grow older,the way i see things keep changing and changing due to exposures to different information and opinions. .and now,thanks to THE CHALLENGER,i now see marriage in a different way,the correct way. .when i was younger,i used to think that before two people can become boyfrens and girlfrens,they shud REALLY know each other,the purpose is to insure long lasting relationship,i thought i was clever,hahah. .then after years passed i discovered that when the two people become a couple,THAT is the time for them to really get to know each other,not before,this is for better understanding of each other because people act differently to friends and to that special someone. .so if she or he is too manja for example or too jealousy type and you dont like that,you can just dump him/her and you'd SAVE ur time getting to "know" him/her because u get to move on earlier,not like my first way of seeing the case. .if u like him/her,get engaged and get married! !to me this WAS the most logical point of view. .after a couple of years,i became more serious about relationship and marriage and was DESPERATE to have a relationship soon. .but i didnt know if its the right thing to do. .i mean,will it last til i get married and so on? ?and i also heard about the NO GF-BF IN ISLAM but tend to ignore it,wasnt a big deal to me. .i wrote about the problem on my blog. .and THE CHALLENGER responded. .he/she told me that i shouldnt have a bf-gf relationship,due to Islamic teachings and that i should do more reading. .and i DID. .i googled ISLAMIC RELATIONSHIP and found a site. .the article was ENDLESS! !hahah,didnt finish half way and i was CONVINCED! ! Marriage,is special. .it is when people get married that they get to know each other. .not before bf-gf,not after bf-gf,but AFTER MARRIAGE. .marriage is the time that we should experience the excitement and happiness spending time with a special someone,if u have spent time with that someone before you get married,then it makes the marriage less special. .so all i have to do now,is wait til i get old enough to marry ( 25 ? ? ) and when i like someone just go tell my parents yang aku bkenan,hahaha. .but then a few questions popped in my head "who in the world in this modern days would accept me as her husband when she doesnt know me that much?" and i got the answer right away,my answer to the question was,MY JODOH! ! the next question was "how'd u noe if shes the type of girl u like when i only know a lil bit bout her ? " and my answer to that was,I believe that a good person shall be jodoh-ed ( xp ) with a good person as the challenger mentioned,so all i gotta do is be a good person,hehe. .I smiled to my self as the answers i have been looking for has came to me. .and i think this is also the reason it never worked out for me and the girls i liked,its so that MY MARRIAGE would be SPECIAL. .so for now,i'll just sit back,relax and enjoy the show. .hahaha. .til next time people,assalamualaikum and peace! !

Special thanks to THE CHALLENGER XD

Aham aham

Wadap mai' ( urg2nya nganya phm ne xp ) ? ? Assalamualaikuuum. .ari ne aku bmood kn blogging kai bhasa mlayu. .mlayu brunei plang tu,mun mlayu standard kapisan x eh,lagi handal englishku dri bhasa mlayu.hoho. .anu bah,apath kamu?cuti aah? Siuk kh so far? krja kmu udaah? Aku lum plang krja,but aku start krja 3rd january time school reopen sal parentsku suruh. .arah pija hat saja ahh. .aku mau buat pija,but nda kna bge position atu,sbr sja,n bsyukur aku dpt krja. .hehe. .so since aku blum krja,nadakn ku buat bnrnya,kburinganku,aku ane kn mau main2 photoshop,handalkn lge,but pcku rusak,bth dh. .grapik card drivernya rusak bh. .aish,bleh plang mseh d pkai but sakit mata bh mlyat screen aah,colournya 4 bit x nganya. .hoho. .phm kmu kh?hahaha. .tpi at least dpt mseh ku buat beats and dgr lagu,baik jua mataku dpt adapt,bsyukuur,alhamdulillah. . .eath,tiap2 hari yg ku buat,mkn mnum (kcuali ari ane psl puasa xp) ,lyat tv,b facebook (nda dpt tinggal ne),msn,dgr lagu,buat lagu and beats,tiduur. . .jgn kn blurus,ofkos aku bnafas. . .awuu,smbyangkuu. .awu,sudah ku bwudhu. . .awuu,mandi jua. .knapa aku rsa mcm aku ckp sorang diri?hoho,eath ne pasal aku kburingan n nada dgn chill. . .slalunya main game plangku ne mun kburingan tpi ntaah,mcm nda lagi siuk bh video game ane,mcm ilang minat ku sdh. .apath tu?timbak2,tumbuk2,nda jua siuk! !hoho. .siuk plang. .tpi ntaah. .apakan. .rindu plangku kn blajar. .ekseeen~ nadaku rindu! Aku rindukn jln2 mkn2 n chill2 dgn kwn dskulah atu. .byk wh tu knangan d sana,hoho. .psl lagu,aku still kn mcari melody yg lawa n ssuai,pyh wah,aku kn buat lagu psl time2 dskulah atu. .blum ada inspirasi wah utk musicnya ane,cmanakn mbuat liriknya ne?apane apane. .hmm. .aku kn buat plan utk cuti ane. .awal ane lah ku buat aah. .bleh kaan?bleh lh ane blog ku. .hmm. .apa aah. .ok,kiranya aku krja part time,4 jam krja. .yg labihnya. .utk buat lagu,be fb,and satu lage yg pnting bgeku,aku mau readykn utk jdi seorang suami/bapa. .soo,aku kn try kuatkn iman,hafalkn tia x doa2 yg pnting2 atu,handalkn tia bca Quran atu. .pas2 aku mau jdi urg yg lbih pnyabar n pnyayang,so aku kn rapatkn lagi hubunganku dgn family ku. .pas2 aku mau blajar mmasak,hehe,pnting ne bgeku. .wlaupun aku laki2,hehe. .so nanti aku bleh masak dgn bne ku,hohoho *angan2* ada2 sja. .so,ckup x tu aah,masa atu?klau usulnya byk masa blabih,aku kn jadi full time a.k.a 8 jam. .advantagenya mun full time dpt mkanan pija hut free xp eh,awu,aku krja d pija hut mall,so nanti lawat2 sja ahh,haha. .mun kmu nmpak laki hensem rmbut afro eath udh tu xp hahaha. .satu g kn ku buat time cuti ane mfitkn bdn. .so mun time pagi2 jogging th ku tuu. .nda plang tiap2 hari. .hehe,n aku kn work out lage,after k singapore atu,tinggal waah work out ahh,huhu. .and uh,aku kn blajar driving kreta lge,haha. .nda g bth 18 x aaah. .8 bulan,bth kh tu?ntahlah. .haha. .and aku kn spend time lge dgn kwn2ku yg trsayang. .hahah,byk kn ku buat ane. . .tbuat kh ku nda ne. .hehehe. .bh,smpai cne sja x aah. .2 jam lbih g kn sungkai,woh0o!hahah,nda plangku lapar bnr. .bh bh. .nda jua jdi brnti ne krg. .ookie,assalamualaikum n peace! .] *emoticon unique yg urg2nya ngnya tau xp*

Advantages of me having a relationship now

Halu halu,assalamualaikum. .i told you i'd do this post as a comeback to the emo post i wrote about the disadvantages of me having a relationship now. .what? U havent read that post? Go read it,its awesome ! ( sense the sarcasm? ) hua hua hua. .ok lets start xD

lets start with the case about me not being ready. .ok. .lets compare marriage as having a driving licence. .the relationship being the car. .so if u can have the car before u even have the licence,aka ur not ready to drive. .so that means u can have a relationship even if ur not redy for marriage. .but u have to have commitment,take driving lessons,get ready. .
Next,will it last? Who knows?if theres a deep hole on the ground,u cant see whats down there,u dnt noe how deep it is. .so the only to find out how deep the hole is,is to jump down. . .unless ur scaaaared~ so u dnt know long it'll last,give it try. .if it doesnt work out,start from the beginning. .what im saying is that its worth trying. .its not like ur gonna die trying. .ur gonna get hurt but for me,its worth the risk,hahaha. .since this is about me,u cant disagree xp
next~ yes i have my family n my friends BUUUUT~ spending time with that special someone is a very different experience. .hehe,its like taking marijuana but ur addicted to coccaine. .does that make any sense?ntah lah. .
Next next! Aaah,theres a BETTER WAY to get those i succeeded. . .but but will i do those OTHER ways? Hahaha. .
Next next,apa lage? Bring it on!aah,about WASTING time and all? Its not a waste actually. .its part of learning. .learnt how to think and make decisions,learnt reasoning,learnt how to distract my self from being nervous,and blogging is SO not a waste of time! !helps me release tension,and its a good finger exercise,hahaha
next next! !eh,abis tia?hoho. .so aku add ja advantagesnya aah. . .the say the first time is the hardest. .if i have a relationship now and it doesnt work out well,i'll be more experienced and it wont hurt me much next time. .if it works out well,ALHAMDULILLAH,HAHAHA. .its a win win! !menang menang! !apakn. .lalalala. .apa lage ah? ? Having a relationship now is like having anything else,it has advantages and disadvantages,if u noe how to work with it,it'll have lots of good effects on u,its all about being smart. .am i smart? Yes yes i think so? So i can have a relationship now? Yes yes i think so :) No more Mr.emo? Yes Yes i think so xD HUA HUA HUA. .apakan. .ookie thats all~ ada yg kn mcabar my argument? ?post ja pat cbox ,hoho. .bh,assalamualaikum and peace~