The walkThe walk

Assalamualaikum. .i,had oficially turned 18 last saturday. .i believe that as i grow older,my body must not be the only thing which is growing. .i must grow as a whole. .physically,mentally and spiritually. .i had a small celebration for my birthday with my family and friends. .somehow i feel that it shouldn't be just me we were celebrating for but it should be for everybody who had been an influence to me. .my parents especially,the rest of the family and my friends. .bcause without them,im not 'me'. .lalala. .regarding my education,i am currently waiting for an answer from the Ministry of Education. .hopefully i'll get the scholarship. .amiin. .hehe. .i have lots to say,but it takes a lot of time for me to put it all here. .maybe next time. .assalamualaikum

Aku Bangun Semula

Assalamualaikum. .pertama sekali,alhamdulillah,rasa sakit yang menusuk hati telah pun berkurangan. Tapi saya masih bimbang,kerana saya tidak mahu kehilangan seorang sahabat.Tambahan lagi,dia selalu membuat saya teringat kepada Allah. Mungkin sudah sampai seminggu saya tidak mendengar khabarnya. Saya masih tidak faham mengapa dia perlu menghilang,padahal saya tidak berlaku salah. Atau mungkin saya tidak menyedarinya. Saya kini,bak kata orang Inggeris 'walking solo' ! Memang ada kebaikan dan keburukannya sendiri. Tetapi saya tidak berniat untuk menceritakan hal tersebut di sini. Saya sekarang berada di atas satu barisan yang nipis. Di sebelah kiri ada lah 'Fauzan' yang mencuba untuk mencari pengganti,walaupun dia mengetahui eanya adalah salah. Dia sesungguhnya masih mempunyai perasaan walaupun sedikit terhadap wanita yang telah meninggalkannya. Manakala di sebelah kanan adalah 'Fauzan' yang berusaha untuk menahan diri dan berhati hati dari terjatuh ke perangkap cinta yang mungkin tidak membawa kebaikan. Dia percaya bahawa dia masih terlalu muda untuk memikirkan hal perkahwinan dan dia menanti akan harinya dia betul betul bersedia untuk berumah tangga. Memang 'Fauzan' yang berada di sebelah kanan adalah lebih baik dari yang di sebelah kiri. Dan memang 'wanita Y' mahukan saya untuk menjadi 'Fauzan' yang berada di sebelah kanan. Jika saya menjadi 'Fauzan' di kiri,maka sia sia lah pengorbanan 'wanita Y' . . Dengan ini saya berharap saya berjalan menuju ke arah yang betul,perjalanan ke arah kebaikan,amin ya rabbal alamin. . Assalamualaikum.

the last drop of ink

“No. . .It can’t be. .” I stared onto the small pixelated screen of the phone I was firmly holding. My grip started to weaken as my whole body trembled in a sudden, like a person who’d just seen a ghost. The pink colour of my lips faded into a pale shade of purple. I re-read the text message I received. Unsatisfied, I began to read it again, and again, and again. .For each time, the pace of my breathing doubled itself. I studied each and every word thoroughly for the last time. “No.” I cried in disbelief. My knees dropped to the cold hard tiles of the floor. I leaned back to the blue wall and tried to find a comfortable position to sit. Slowly, I put the phone in my hand into the right pocket of my trousers. I raised my head and stared into the ceiling above me. Droplets of sorrow streamed down my dry cheeks. I tried to wipe the tears off my face but new ones replaced them in a matter of a second.

A fusion of feelings were driven through my weakened body. Sadness, happiness, pain. . My face contorted as I resisted myself from screaming my heart out. Short peculiar sounds began to escape from my mouth. I flooded my room that day. .

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It was a message from the person who had my beating heart. .My unconditional trust. .My undying love. .The special relationship we had, our journey towards eternal happiness, she had put to a stop. Her reasons are truly sincere and it’s the exact same reason why I thought of leaving her before; to walk the right path to Allah. I knew it was best for me to leave her but I did not want to hurt her. So I stayed with her. . until now. .She’s a strong one. .Its hurtful; the fact that I now have to erase the memories we had together. The sweet ones, the bitter ones, all of it. .If we can still be friends now, then it wouldn’t be much of a suffering for me. But that’s not the case. *chuckles* She’s not going to spend a second of her life with me any longer. It’s like she never existed. This is all happening too rapid. I guess I have to live with this. Alright, I’m done blogging, I’m off to sleep. .

The new chapter

Assalamualaikum and hello. .*inspects surrounding* hmm,i expected this place to be more abandoned-looking,with dust and spiderwebs everywhere. .i am disappointed. .aah,its nearly 2 in the morning. .i shouldn't be blogging right now. .i shouldn't even be AWAKE right now *Satsuki's song in my head*. .Well,a few updates won't hurt,would it? So how is my LIFE nowadays? Aah,i finally have a life after leaving the '' affordable casual dining restaurant '' which name i wouldn't mention. .Pizza Hut~ must've got some sort of soap in my mouth,its so slippery that words just slip off. .that certainly won't be a good thing to happen when Im teaching. .wait,did I say TEACHING? Im a teacher now? Yes,I am. .So I am Mr Fauzan the teacher. .I consider my self lucky. .I mean,being a teacher,who would've expected? So Alhamdulillah. .I teach Physics,Combined Science,General Paper and Mathematics at a tuition centre in Kiulap. .Its a lot of fun! At first I was gonna be like the cool,macho,serious type of teacher but after a few weeks the wild side of me just exposed it self to the students. .lol. .Alhamdulillah again,i have more pay than I had in Pizza Hut,LESS STRESS! I get to have dinner with my family now and I don't have to put on a fake smile all the time. .I am truly grateful. .You know what? i really don't know what to write cuz theres just too many things i want to say. .Education! ! i am nearly done with my UCAS thingy,just need to apply and I really hope I'd get a placement at Sheffield Uni. cuz thats where most of my buddies are ALREADY ACCEPTED. .yeah im kinda left behind. .*wait for meee~~* now,LOVE talk! !how is my love life? Fantastic ! But is it love? Its weird that im using the word 'love' now cuz WE kinda restrict ourselves from using that word. . She's NOT my girl,and im NOT her boy. .or man,what ever. .She's the person that maybe one day i would propose to marriage. .She's my PFW ! ! PFW is a term i created a few seconds ago which stands for Potential Future Wife. .yeah,thats about it. .sometimes i feel bad about my self for making her sound like an object rather than a human. .I mean i just called her PFW! Which kinda reminds me of BMW. .apakan. .I don't know. .I don't want to give her my all because I am not sure,of us. .We are like 10 years to go before we finally marry,if we are meant for each other. .What if,we are not? I don't want her or me to get hurt. .I miss her right now,shes busy studying cuz exam is near. .sometimes i compare the feeling of being lonely and the feeling of missing someone and try to figure out which is worse. .lets talk bout music. .aah,i think i have managed to improve my vocals,hehe. .Sound and pitching is better now. .but i still need to do more practice. .My studio? I have spent nearly $700 on studio stuffs. .$120 on headphones. .$110 on mics. .$70 on cables. .$260 on mixer. .$84 on sound card. .and im planning to get more mics,hahahah. .hmm,i think i wanna get some sleep now,hehe. .Assalamualaikum and Gud morning. .

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Assalamualaikum! ! !and ALAW! ! !sory yo lama dh nda bupdate,mcm blek2 dh aku ckp cmane,hahaha. . .adakn ku gtau bh,ngaleh dh ku blogging sbnrnya,hehe,sibuk sja lge ku. .aku dh kerja,d pija hut mall,now as a full time waiter,eath ngaleh atu x,hehehe. Siuk jua laa,byk kwn pilipino,hahah,brunei pun ada jua laa. . .aku suka ambil order yo!mcm siuk bckp dgn stranger atu,lonely x ku,hahahah. . .mcm2 ulah customer ane,ada yg snyum2,ada yg ktawa2,ada yg marung2,ada yg marah2,hahah. .ada yg bcali,ada yg serius,ada yg mcm nda ingau kn ordernya,hahah. . .n aku suka serve food,n pnyap2 meja. .siuk laaah~tapi ngaleh,hahaha. .exercise jua laa. . .hehe. . .hari ane aku off!eath aku dpt blogging ane,hehe. . .and awu,aku jrg dh blog cne,pasal aku ada "diary" baru O.O sorry aku curang arah kau wahai youngjok3r.blogspot.com. . .huhuhu. . .ok,cmane planku kn krja ne. . .3-4 bulan kerja full time. .after atu aku kn buat lagu lagi,so tukar jadi part time. .hehehe,kalau buleh aku mau jadi cook!hehe. .mcm cuzenku aah,ea tpulang dpt position atu,hoho,jelesku. . .hehe,bh,atu jer kali fo today. .assalamualaikuum~ n peace

XD X) X0 X| X(

Assalamualaikum people. .n hye. .havent blogged for quite awhile. .sorry about that. .and theres a reason why,which i will explain shortly hehe. .but before that,i have an announcement to make. .remember MH?and in the earlier post i mentioned her sister,remember her?lets call her YH instead of EH,hehe. .anyway,what i want to tell you guys is that,im into her now. .sorry i didnt tell u before. .i wanted to tell but then its kinda awkward to do so cuz she reads this blog,hehe. .and that is why i havent blogged for awhile. .so why am i tellin u guys,now?its because i'll be blogging about her from now on. .hehe. .so,i owe guys a story?hahah. .well,imma make it short. .rmember when i tried to forget MH?thats when she came,she helped me in deciding what to do. .so i moved on and soon find out that i started to have feelings for her. .hoho. . .so one day i kinda confessed indirectly,i wasnt expecting anything,i just think that i shouldnt hide,i never liked hiding,hahah. .but then she told me that she liked me too. .wooaah. .we started to get closer since then. .and then MH found out about this,hahah. .MH asked me "why her?is it bcuz shes the closest to MH?scary" didnt get to answer that,hahah. .but no!its not bcuz shes like another MH,but its bcuz shes my type. .that simple xD hahah. .but why am i blogging bout her now?bcuz. .we wont be contacting each other starting tomorrow since shes gnna be busy fo school,and ofcourse i'll be down,and expressing my self in this blog would help me feel better,hehe,besides i'd be bored without her so blogging will do to get rid of that boredom. .hahah. .u guys must be wonderin how she is like that she gets my interest. .so maybe next post?hehe. .alryte thats all. .hope u guys understand what i was trynna say,hahah,ngaleh ku cek wah kalau ada mistake kh apakh. .bh,assalamualaikum n peace. .

Huss

Wadap mai. .assalamualaikum,my friends expect me to update my blog soo,here it is! Aah,ok,lets start. .today,me and ma friends(saf,syam,muiz and hairuz) went out to hang out,its been awhile you know since the last time. .we went to the bank first to withdraw some cash then we headed to shopping.com.bn cuz i wanted to buy an external hard disk. .a 500Gb xhd for $99,quite a good price for me. .i had lil trouble deciding which colour to choose. .there were only two options,black or red. .the black one is the common one so if i buy that it'll be the same as other people's. .i rarely see people with the red one but im not really a fan of red (Sorry red lovers xp) . .after a few minutes of thinking, i chose the red cuz i think that the black one is khnda dull looking. .paid for it,went to the car,and off to the mall (the only building bruneians call a mall). .i messaged MH earlier and she'd be watchin the movie with us later. .as soon as we reached the building,our stomachs demanded food. .but we went to buy the tickets before we went to KFC,I wanted McDonalds but went to KFC. .ordered the zinger xmeal and didnt expect safwan to pay for me,thanks bang chap! !only finished eating the fried chicken,ate like 1/8 of the burger and half of the french fries. .so i gave the leftover to Muiz who was seatin infront me and keeps sayin 'aku lum plang knyang ne' evertym i said 'nda ku t abis eh'. .and i didnt even finish my drink. .maybe its the porridge i had for breakfast. .i mean,i usually eat a LOT! !one x meal is a no problem! Anyway,after eatin me n c saf we went to the toilet. .and then to UTAMA GRAND to buy chewing gums to refreshen our breaths. .after that we met with the others,then me and syam went to cinema 7 to watch NGANGKUNG while the others went to watch TRON LEGACY. .Waie,MH and her sister was supposed to join me and syam but they came in late. .they didnt miss anything important tho. .the movie was ok, 6/10 and im being generous xD Funny but not THAT funny,i only laughed real hard when i read an address printed on the lorry in the movie. .the address says "kg btg bjuntai",well,i find it funny. .after that we went to perform our zuhur prayers cuz the movie started a minute after the azan so we didnt have time to pray first. .became the imam in the surau and it felt like when i was in PTEK X( our next destination was Dairy Queen. .waie ordered French Vanilla,syam and MH the usual Blizzard Orea,i had Blizzard Maltesers while MH's sister (lets call her EH now) did nt want to have anything for whatever reason,hahah. .so the five of us sat at the table,the boys talked with the boys,and the girls with themselves. .hoho,i cant think of anything to talk about with the girls. .the other boys came and kidnapped Waie from us to go to NBK and play COD 4:Modern Warfare. .so it was the four of us,and there was that awkward silence. .hoho. .MH suggested me to talk of my experience during the interview. .and the nyanyah side of me took control ,breaking the silence. .soon,there was that silence again but EH came to the resque and spoke to me "jln2 eh" and i was like,why didnt i thought of that? Hah. .we walked to the OTHER arcade ( cuz i dnt noe the name,its not uniarcade,its the other one). .i bought 4 tokens confidently,stepped into the karaoke room and was shocked when there was no token slot. .RUPANYAA,i was supposed to tell the people in charge. .hoho. .its $1 per song and i wanted two songs. .i "sang" first. .didnt noe what song to sing so i went for "knock you down" by keri hilson. .it was a DISASTER! ! I sounded soo horrible,i barely rmember the song. .i was so frustrated that i listened and sang a long to the song when i reached home. .a stupid dcision,hahah. .then the Hs sang "Fearless" by taylor swift. .they sounded good,WAAAYY better than i did. . Hahah. .still having the tokens,we used it to shoot hoops. .it was time for the Hs to go home so its bye2 time. .me and syam went to the surau again to perform asar prayer. .we met the others at the fun donut (Waie's treat xD) before we were off to home. .and that was it. .hahah. .i had fun today. .and tomorrow kan main badminton! Yehee~ mana racquet ku aah?hoho,minjam ja dri c syam. .ookie assalamualaikum n peace~

Solved

Assalamualaikum and happy saturday! !today im feeling like english baybaay~ ookie. .it seems that as i grow older,the way i see things keep changing and changing due to exposures to different information and opinions. .and now,thanks to THE CHALLENGER,i now see marriage in a different way,the correct way. .when i was younger,i used to think that before two people can become boyfrens and girlfrens,they shud REALLY know each other,the purpose is to insure long lasting relationship,i thought i was clever,hahah. .then after years passed i discovered that when the two people become a couple,THAT is the time for them to really get to know each other,not before,this is for better understanding of each other because people act differently to friends and to that special someone. .so if she or he is too manja for example or too jealousy type and you dont like that,you can just dump him/her and you'd SAVE ur time getting to "know" him/her because u get to move on earlier,not like my first way of seeing the case. .if u like him/her,get engaged and get married! !to me this WAS the most logical point of view. .after a couple of years,i became more serious about relationship and marriage and was DESPERATE to have a relationship soon. .but i didnt know if its the right thing to do. .i mean,will it last til i get married and so on? ?and i also heard about the NO GF-BF IN ISLAM but tend to ignore it,wasnt a big deal to me. .i wrote about the problem on my blog. .and THE CHALLENGER responded. .he/she told me that i shouldnt have a bf-gf relationship,due to Islamic teachings and that i should do more reading. .and i DID. .i googled ISLAMIC RELATIONSHIP and found a site. .the article was ENDLESS! !hahah,didnt finish half way and i was CONVINCED! ! Marriage,is special. .it is when people get married that they get to know each other. .not before bf-gf,not after bf-gf,but AFTER MARRIAGE. .marriage is the time that we should experience the excitement and happiness spending time with a special someone,if u have spent time with that someone before you get married,then it makes the marriage less special. .so all i have to do now,is wait til i get old enough to marry ( 25 ? ? ) and when i like someone just go tell my parents yang aku bkenan,hahaha. .but then a few questions popped in my head "who in the world in this modern days would accept me as her husband when she doesnt know me that much?" and i got the answer right away,my answer to the question was,MY JODOH! ! the next question was "how'd u noe if shes the type of girl u like when i only know a lil bit bout her ? " and my answer to that was,I believe that a good person shall be jodoh-ed ( xp ) with a good person as the challenger mentioned,so all i gotta do is be a good person,hehe. .I smiled to my self as the answers i have been looking for has came to me. .and i think this is also the reason it never worked out for me and the girls i liked,its so that MY MARRIAGE would be SPECIAL. .so for now,i'll just sit back,relax and enjoy the show. .hahaha. .til next time people,assalamualaikum and peace! !

Special thanks to THE CHALLENGER XD

Aham aham

Wadap mai' ( urg2nya nganya phm ne xp ) ? ? Assalamualaikuuum. .ari ne aku bmood kn blogging kai bhasa mlayu. .mlayu brunei plang tu,mun mlayu standard kapisan x eh,lagi handal englishku dri bhasa mlayu.hoho. .anu bah,apath kamu?cuti aah? Siuk kh so far? krja kmu udaah? Aku lum plang krja,but aku start krja 3rd january time school reopen sal parentsku suruh. .arah pija hat saja ahh. .aku mau buat pija,but nda kna bge position atu,sbr sja,n bsyukur aku dpt krja. .hehe. .so since aku blum krja,nadakn ku buat bnrnya,kburinganku,aku ane kn mau main2 photoshop,handalkn lge,but pcku rusak,bth dh. .grapik card drivernya rusak bh. .aish,bleh plang mseh d pkai but sakit mata bh mlyat screen aah,colournya 4 bit x nganya. .hoho. .phm kmu kh?hahaha. .tpi at least dpt mseh ku buat beats and dgr lagu,baik jua mataku dpt adapt,bsyukuur,alhamdulillah. . .eath,tiap2 hari yg ku buat,mkn mnum (kcuali ari ane psl puasa xp) ,lyat tv,b facebook (nda dpt tinggal ne),msn,dgr lagu,buat lagu and beats,tiduur. . .jgn kn blurus,ofkos aku bnafas. . .awuu,smbyangkuu. .awu,sudah ku bwudhu. . .awuu,mandi jua. .knapa aku rsa mcm aku ckp sorang diri?hoho,eath ne pasal aku kburingan n nada dgn chill. . .slalunya main game plangku ne mun kburingan tpi ntaah,mcm nda lagi siuk bh video game ane,mcm ilang minat ku sdh. .apath tu?timbak2,tumbuk2,nda jua siuk! !hoho. .siuk plang. .tpi ntaah. .apakan. .rindu plangku kn blajar. .ekseeen~ nadaku rindu! Aku rindukn jln2 mkn2 n chill2 dgn kwn dskulah atu. .byk wh tu knangan d sana,hoho. .psl lagu,aku still kn mcari melody yg lawa n ssuai,pyh wah,aku kn buat lagu psl time2 dskulah atu. .blum ada inspirasi wah utk musicnya ane,cmanakn mbuat liriknya ne?apane apane. .hmm. .aku kn buat plan utk cuti ane. .awal ane lah ku buat aah. .bleh kaan?bleh lh ane blog ku. .hmm. .apa aah. .ok,kiranya aku krja part time,4 jam krja. .yg labihnya. .utk buat lagu,be fb,and satu lage yg pnting bgeku,aku mau readykn utk jdi seorang suami/bapa. .soo,aku kn try kuatkn iman,hafalkn tia x doa2 yg pnting2 atu,handalkn tia bca Quran atu. .pas2 aku mau jdi urg yg lbih pnyabar n pnyayang,so aku kn rapatkn lagi hubunganku dgn family ku. .pas2 aku mau blajar mmasak,hehe,pnting ne bgeku. .wlaupun aku laki2,hehe. .so nanti aku bleh masak dgn bne ku,hohoho *angan2* ada2 sja. .so,ckup x tu aah,masa atu?klau usulnya byk masa blabih,aku kn jadi full time a.k.a 8 jam. .advantagenya mun full time dpt mkanan pija hut free xp eh,awu,aku krja d pija hut mall,so nanti lawat2 sja ahh,haha. .mun kmu nmpak laki hensem rmbut afro eath udh tu xp hahaha. .satu g kn ku buat time cuti ane mfitkn bdn. .so mun time pagi2 jogging th ku tuu. .nda plang tiap2 hari. .hehe,n aku kn work out lage,after k singapore atu,tinggal waah work out ahh,huhu. .and uh,aku kn blajar driving kreta lge,haha. .nda g bth 18 x aaah. .8 bulan,bth kh tu?ntahlah. .haha. .and aku kn spend time lge dgn kwn2ku yg trsayang. .hahah,byk kn ku buat ane. . .tbuat kh ku nda ne. .hehehe. .bh,smpai cne sja x aah. .2 jam lbih g kn sungkai,woh0o!hahah,nda plangku lapar bnr. .bh bh. .nda jua jdi brnti ne krg. .ookie,assalamualaikum n peace! .] *emoticon unique yg urg2nya ngnya tau xp*

Advantages of me having a relationship now

Halu halu,assalamualaikum. .i told you i'd do this post as a comeback to the emo post i wrote about the disadvantages of me having a relationship now. .what? U havent read that post? Go read it,its awesome ! ( sense the sarcasm? ) hua hua hua. .ok lets start xD

lets start with the case about me not being ready. .ok. .lets compare marriage as having a driving licence. .the relationship being the car. .so if u can have the car before u even have the licence,aka ur not ready to drive. .so that means u can have a relationship even if ur not redy for marriage. .but u have to have commitment,take driving lessons,get ready. .
Next,will it last? Who knows?if theres a deep hole on the ground,u cant see whats down there,u dnt noe how deep it is. .so the only to find out how deep the hole is,is to jump down. . .unless ur scaaaared~ so u dnt know long it'll last,give it try. .if it doesnt work out,start from the beginning. .what im saying is that its worth trying. .its not like ur gonna die trying. .ur gonna get hurt but for me,its worth the risk,hahaha. .since this is about me,u cant disagree xp
next~ yes i have my family n my friends BUUUUT~ spending time with that special someone is a very different experience. .hehe,its like taking marijuana but ur addicted to coccaine. .does that make any sense?ntah lah. .
Next next! Aaah,theres a BETTER WAY to get those i succeeded. . .but but will i do those OTHER ways? Hahaha. .
Next next,apa lage? Bring it on!aah,about WASTING time and all? Its not a waste actually. .its part of learning. .learnt how to think and make decisions,learnt reasoning,learnt how to distract my self from being nervous,and blogging is SO not a waste of time! !helps me release tension,and its a good finger exercise,hahaha
next next! !eh,abis tia?hoho. .so aku add ja advantagesnya aah. . .the say the first time is the hardest. .if i have a relationship now and it doesnt work out well,i'll be more experienced and it wont hurt me much next time. .if it works out well,ALHAMDULILLAH,HAHAHA. .its a win win! !menang menang! !apakn. .lalalala. .apa lage ah? ? Having a relationship now is like having anything else,it has advantages and disadvantages,if u noe how to work with it,it'll have lots of good effects on u,its all about being smart. .am i smart? Yes yes i think so? So i can have a relationship now? Yes yes i think so :) No more Mr.emo? Yes Yes i think so xD HUA HUA HUA. .apakan. .ookie thats all~ ada yg kn mcabar my argument? ?post ja pat cbox ,hoho. .bh,assalamualaikum and peace~

Nganganganga

Hello blog! ! Assalamualaikum. .do u miss me? No? Why noot? Eish. .well i miss u,bth sdh nda blogging x aah. .anyway. .im BAAAACK in Brunei ~ tadi bru smpai kul 3:20. .then sdh tu pkul 7:30 arah urg bbadak tia. .nada reeehat. .huhu. .anyway,Singapore was AWESOME! !it was fun bah,altho tiring. .hehe. .at last,i bought toys! !bth dh nada bali mainan,hahah. .nerf plang sja ku bli,hehe. .i bought three nerf blasters!huahuahua bcuz im greedy. . Lalala. .i was in singapore for 9 days,did a lot of things with my family,like having breakfast together,having lunch together,having dinner together,having supper together and much2 more like drinking coke together,drinking tea together we even drank mineral water together! ! !isnt that AMAZING? ? Juuuust kidding. .we stayed at the grand park orchard hotel. .the first two days we went shopping,bought some clothes fo me self. .the 3rd day we went to snow city and the science cntre,it was fun! !and we went to the night safari and i went to the fish spa! ! Siuk! ! dnt rmember when. .then we transfred to the festive hotel in sentosa. .my dad liked the room bcuz it has a balcony so he didnt have to go downstairs to smoke xD the next day we went to the universal studios! ! And i had my first rollercoaster ride which i wasnt expecting. .i was queuing for a ride which i did not noe what,after like 20 mins of queuing,i saw a sign "WARNING,THIS IS A HIGH SPEED ROLLERCOASTER bla bla bla" and i was like WHAAAT? ? ! ! It was fun tho. .i screamed hystarically like a girl in a justin bieber concert. .im just glad the ride didnt last long. .hehe. .i strangled frankenstein! ! And i saw cleopatra,and fortunately she didnt see me or else she'd be with me right now n i cant blog. .i ate a burger! ! Dnt see anythng intrsting about that? Yeah me too. .anyway i did a lot of things there and bout a few souvenirs,cool pens! !the next day we went shopping again. .the next day we went skyriding,luge and segway something and ntah mcm2 activity. .we also went to the underwater world where we saw pink dolphins performing tricks and where i saw cool marine creatures! ! Yippee! ! Then we went back to grand park orchard. .pastu shop shop shop esuknya. .esuknya lge time to go home but smpat g shopping skajap d airport,hahaha. . .we ate a lot of fast food d singapore atu cuz byk tmpat nda halal. .tpi nyaman usulnya,bri bnci. .and i did not see any MH,only cute women. .yes,women,not girls,women. .hehe. .im tired now,i wanna sleep. .soo,gud bye! !assalamualaikum! This is a rush post,have mercy xD

Wiwiwi

Assalamualaikum n hello~ im at airport now. .gonna be at singapore for about 9 days. .its been a long time since i went somewhere else besides miri and kk. .hahah. .i rmember the last time i went to singapore but the memory is kinda blurred bcuz i was still very little. .i hope everythings gonna go fine now,i dnt want no trouble. .hehe. .today im feelin better than yesterday and waaay better than yestrday's ystrday. .imagine having a fever,diarrhoea,and having that about to vomit feeling. .it was bad. .but i am grateful. .we have to be grateful for everything. .i mean,i was only sick like for 3 days. .imagine ur feelin like that ALL the time. .or imagine ur sick on a very important day. .sure,i was supposed to train at pizza hut that day (ohh yeah didnt tell u bout this xD) but its better than me being sick while in singapore,how am i supposed to enjoy it?haha. .anyway,i just rmembered that we're not supposed to bring sharp items and just realised i got my geometry set in my bag!bcuz its the same bag that i use fo skool. .it reminded me of skool,i rely miss it. .hmm. .now im just waitin for the time to get on the plane. .hehe. .btw,dnt worry about the post below,it was just the other side of me,the bad,the sad,the pessimist,but clever side of me. .but not clever enough as i can beat his speech. .huahua. .but thats for another post xD OOkay,i think thats all for now,im sory if this post is kind of a rush,hehe,it is.im gnna miss brunei,my room,nasi katok n etc. .okay,assalamualaikum n peace~

Dadada

Assalamualaikum. .hello world! ! Ive been wondering,whether im ready for romance,or not. .my mother says its a part of growing up. .i think my father agrees too. .i. .think differently. .well the way i think of things/situation may change daily (says my frens) but for today,i dnt think i NEED it. .i WANT it,but i dnt NEED it. .and i dnt even think im ready for it. .in my opinion,if i am to have a relationship with someone,its becuz i want to marry that person. .but am i ready for marriage? No. . I dnt have a job,so i dnt have money,so i cant feed my family. .another thing is,i dnt think im independent enough,am i responsible? I dnt think so. . Besides,if im having a relationship now,will it last? ?hmm? So is there any good reason to have a relationship NOW at a young age? If im lonely i have my friends to have fun with,i have my family. . my mother says that im missing out something in my life. . Is that true? People say tha mother knows best. . YES! Its true,but there are a LOT of things in life,and u can never do them all. .so its a guarantee u'll be missing sumthing out in ur life. .So far in my attempt to find the love of my life,what have i succeeded? Say whatever u want i bet theres a BETTER way to achieve that. .i wasted my time thinking,crying,looking into the mirror talking to my self,and wasting my energy,i lose focus in classsometimes due to nervousness,spent hours to make a decision on what to do and to just trying to understand my feelings,and i waste my time like right now blogging. . So uhh,i think i'll stop now. .im sorry if this post is emo an not fun(except if u enjoy reading emo posts). .ok,assalamualaikum and peace.

Wawawawaa

Assalamualaikum n hello~ today im going to blog using Brunei n only a lil bit of English bcause im sick of using English saja. .and i assume that most of the readers of this blog understand Brunei. .ryt?correct me if im wrong. .

Ookie. .so. .tadi pagi,aku arah jemputan kawin my cousinkh o something,hehe nda ku brapa biasa,d polo club sbgai pnyambut ttamu,tukang mbge campur dan sbgainya. .hoho. .byk jua lah ku salam atu,byk lah jua rtinya phala atu. .hehe. .ada jua yg nda bsalam ngan aku,luan laju kakinya atu. .sambil 'bkrja' atu aku mdgr bne2 ( eEe! Xp ) bdikir. .entertaining jua lah,nda jua sangal kakiku bdiri saja. .so sdh mcm smua jmputan sudah msuk,aku naik ke atas tampat urg bdikir/btausyeh atu. .wow~ ada M~ hehe. .after atu kbwh ku makan. . .after ku knyang(sbnrnya blum knyang xD)then,urg balik pun Aku jadi tukang salam. .pastu turun tia urg yg bdikir ane. . .waah,attractive jua lah yg main gandang atu pasal matanya n snyumannya yg unique. .tapi gue nggak approach. .n0o~mngapa?ntah! !bsai sudah jnisnya. . .aishh! !tapi nda apa lah,ane sbgai pngajaran.mun nanti ada pluang cmane,jgn dlepaskan. . .hahahahahaha. . .ookie. .itu saja. . .assalamualaikum n peace

Lalolalo

Assalamualaikum n hello. .i havent updated for quite awhile. .i wanted to post something but i didnt noe what to write/type/or whatever. .maybe theres just nothing interesting to tell or maybe im too lazy to explain it or maybe i just dnt wanna share it or whatever. .n now im talking rubbish/trash/crap/or whatever. .wat to write what to type. .ohh. .oh. .i sent my cv to pizza hut last sunday. .n yestrday i had my intrview. .it was AWESOME! !it was more like a friendly chat,didnt talk much about the job. .but before dat i had to wait like 2 hours! Fortunately i had sum1 to talk to,a stranger but who cares?my parents never say "do not talk to strangers" well not in english. .lol. .oh yeah,the stranger is now just a person i talked to while waitin for an interview,bcuz i didnt ask his name,hoho. .dat sounded gay. .but it isnt. .i didnt talk to a female bcuz i didnt want to be misundrstood as flirting,hoho. .i only flirt MH and there was no MH there,but there was an H. .but shes nt waitn for an intrview,she works there and shes definitely older than me,like 5 years older? Anyway. .i shud be called by pizza hut next monday to confirm if im accepted/rejected/or watever. .WOH0O cant wait. .i hope they'll accept me. ."im sick of all these rejections" - youngjok3r. . "the only medicine to my sickness is acception" - c pau. . "so cant u just accept the rejection?" - fauzan. . "u think ur smart huh?" - c pau. ."well,i AM smarter than you" - fauzan. ."wait,but arent we all the same person?" - youngjok3r. . "yeah,i guess so" - fauzan. . "so how can a person be smarter than himself during the same time and in the same dimension? Unless,he's crazy! " - c pau. . "HEY IM OFFENDED!" - all three. . Watever. .lets talk bout sumthn else. .hmm. .lets talk about love! "booring~" - c pau. . .well lets talk about cars! "even booring~" - youngjok3r. . So lets talk about fishes then? "too random" - c pau. .u noe wat. .LETS TALK ABOUT HOW I FEEL SO ANNOYED BY THESE TWO PEOPLE WHO ARE APPARENTLY DOESNT HAVE ANY IDEA WHAT TO TALK ABOUT BUT COMPLAINS ABOUT I AM GONNA TALK ABOUT?HUH? Hows THAT? . . "sounds great,yeah,we cud have that,go on" - youngjok3r. . AAAARRGGHHHH! ! !

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Nyanyanyanya

Uuluuu(megamind style). .i mean,hello world! !assalamualaikum! !its been awhile since the last time i blogged(properly). .ive been busy. .busy with what? I dnt noe. .my EXAM is OVER! ! !yea! ! ! Now i have like at least 6 months of HOLIDAAAAAY! !i feel like buying ALL those stuffs ive been wanting to get but i do not have MONEY! !so. .the only way to solve this problem,using einstein's law of problem solving which does not exist,its to GET A JOB! !if uve been reading my blog,u wud noe that i planned to lawn the mow. .its a great idea since im the one who came up with it ( xp ) but the problem is,its hard to find the customers. .so using the same einstein law,i have to think of another job. .me n my friends went to one of the pizza hut brunches yesterday. .the pizza was AWESOME bcuz its FRESH FROM THE OVEN ! My friend asked me to find out if they have a vacancy. .so i asked the supervisor( ? ) and he called up his boss who soon came to our table with a smile on his face. .we greeted and talked and introduced ourselves and talked and talked. .it seems like i have chance to work at that place,hehe. .i REALLY want to work in the KITCHEN! !i want to be the one to make the customer's stomach smile wide,although i cant actually see it,but yeah. .ive always wanted to learn how to cook,so. .THIS IS MY CHANCE! ! So todaaay i'll be going there again to give em my resume and hopefully i'll be called for an interview ( my first! ) and hopefully i wud SUCCEED! !it wud be AWESOME~ i wish i cud get like $400 a month so like after two months i cud get my studio stuffs and start recordin for our MIXTAPE! !WOHOO ITS GONNA BE FUN! !and after that maybe i cud get more money and get a new laptop! !hahaha. .so,what else shud i talk about? Hmm. .Ohh,yeah. .i do not noe why,but lately,i kept dreamin of her! Its funny u noe. . I mean,if u think its because i think of her a lot. .NO! I do not think of her as much as i think of eating. .yes,im always hungry nowadays. .anyway,so what IS the reason to her mysterious presence in my dream world? ? Using the einstein law,again. .no,its not applicable. .hmm. . Aah,using a theory i just made which im not sure of its validity. .this must be some sort of WITHDRAWAL SYMPTOM! !yes,it make sense,at least to me. .hehe. .another thing i wanna talk is my "reviews" bout my friend. .honestly i think its plain STUPID! !hahah,i mean,what was i thinking? It wud take me at least one week if i was to describe a friend,i made the two in less than an hour. . .hmm,so i'll stop doing that. .hahaha. .so im sorry to say (no im nt rely sorry,im tired! ) this is the end for now. .assalamualaikum and peace! ! !

Hafizul hakim

Assalamualaikum n hye! Today.i mean,tonyte,im going to tell u bout my friend pijul,aka aki,jemo,etc. .he is another close friend of mine. .met him when i was in form 5. .he wast just transferred from an arabic school. .haha!i still rmember what i did. .his table was next to mine,so i tried to talk to him. . Hello,wats ur name,how old r u. .those kind of thing. .n then,i tried to be MORE friendly and asked "are u into NARUTO(a famous manga/anime that i have lots to catch up with) ? " and unexpectedly what he did was like show me his red naruto watch before doing the "sasuke" cool gesture. .hoho. .and thats how we started being friends. .he is sort of shy but once he's cmfortable with u,hes fine. .hes a good listener,gives good advice.laughs to my jokes. .and he is the person who introduced me the beauty of visual kei(kind of a subgenre of japanese metal)!! He is a fun guy but there are somethings which hes very sensitive about. .u dnt wanna make him angry,hehehe. .he his an AWESOME writer. .he helped me to get an A1 for my Olevel english. .hehe. .in fact,he's the REASON im into writing,bcuz i was jealous,hahaha. .he is a kind person. .yeah. .i think,that is all. .good nyt! !assalamualaikum. .now i have to read the Quran cuz i havent finished it yet and i have Khatam Quran on the 25th! !hoho

Ak md safwan

Assalamualaikum. .tday im gnna talk about my fren safwan n why he's awesome. .he is a very close friend of mine and my music partner. .known him since i was in form 1 in smrimba,we were in the same class. .started to hang out with him in form 2,bcuz we were pmb express students.we've been close since then. .i think. .in form 4,we were also classmates. .we share common interests,like manga,magic and dancing. .in form 3,we were active in drawing. .in form 4,active in doing magic,i love the reactions of peoples faces when theyre astouned,hahaha. .so fun. .in form 5 we started dancing. .in form 5,me n safwan were assigned to make a presentation on pollution(chem class). .we always tried to be unique from the others to catch the teacher's attention. .so,this time we decided to. .RAP! ! Yeah,it was a great experience. .never thot it wud be the first step for us to become partners in making music. .safwan,is a funny guy. .but his jokes nowadays are sometimes disturbing! !lets not put too much details. . Hahaha. .he smiles almost all the time and he seldom gets angry. .even if he's angry,the only difference from the "not angry safwan" is that he lost his smile. .and sometimes he still makes jokes when he's angry. .Girls and kids,gets comfortable easily with safwan. .this is one of the things im jealous of,hehe. .he can sometimes be a listener to ur problems,but sometimes not,bcuz sometimes he doesnt realize that we were being serious,but its alright,haha. .he also likes to annoy people,but in the end got the people laughing. .hmm,what else. .i think that is all,hahah. .bh,assalamualaikum n peace. .

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I dont usually do this but uhh,here i go. . I. .love. . . .my friends! ! Theyre just so awesome! ! I cant imagine how i'd live without them. .actually,i can,and i looked ugly and horrible. .anyway. .each of my friends have different characteristics and different qualities. .so,i think that it wud be interesting to tell u guys about my friends and im going to write one post for each person,hehe. .but not tnight,i wanna sleEP~ btw,i dnt think im gnna talk about any female friends bcuz im nt dat close to them compared to the guys,hehe. .soo,dats ol fo 2nyt,just a short post,assalamualaikum n peace. .

DOUBLE POST! !AhaaAaAa~

Hello. .assalamualaikum. .today was FUUUN! ! !i feel like im really studying!and it feels good~ oryt,i'll be jogging tmrrow mornin at the school with my friends. .endorphins baybay (this is bginning to be my trademark,hehe) . .again,i'll jog barefooted,bcuz its fun! ! !after dat gnna prctice some more p3. . .i cant wait to stop doin math so i cud FOCUS on chem n pijik. .bcuz chem n pijik doesnt need much practice. .hehe. .about MH,i cant wait to chat with her again,i hope God gives me another chance soon. .i have a LOT to ask her,hehe. .ookie,til next time! Assalamualaikum n peace! !